What is it about you that I miss so much?
What keeps me thinking of you so much?
Last night when I checked my mail,
I searched for one of your old mails,
Read it even though I knew it would hurt,
I think I should delete them and then think may be not,
I sent you a mail to an id you don't check,
And am still hoping you reply within a few days,
I don't know what I am doing,
This is certainly not helping as I keep denying,
I wish to move on and I thought I have,
But everytime this loneliness pushes me back a few years,
I sit and look at those lovely days,
When we sat, talked and you were all ears,
To every little thing I said,
Every little moment was cherished,
God! I have had enough, now just make this stop,
And let me go to where I belong.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Time to hit me
Don't know why I chose this title
I guess am just lazy and felt like it
To choose a topic that forces me to act
Do something and get rid of this laze
How I do it even I have no clue,
But sometimes shit comes out and its all new,
I make it a point to write a rhyme,
And force it on every line,
A two-liner or a four,
I will write until I get bored,
This is good for a change,
My poetry is not all about the sane,
Sometimes corny, sometimes emotional,
I try hard and make it proportional,
Knowing the language well helps,
Stopping here to ask what else?
Nothing more to write, nothing else to share,
I should have ended before as I said,
But then again, you know me well,
Sometimes I really, really don't care!
I guess am just lazy and felt like it
To choose a topic that forces me to act
Do something and get rid of this laze
How I do it even I have no clue,
But sometimes shit comes out and its all new,
I make it a point to write a rhyme,
And force it on every line,
A two-liner or a four,
I will write until I get bored,
This is good for a change,
My poetry is not all about the sane,
Sometimes corny, sometimes emotional,
I try hard and make it proportional,
Knowing the language well helps,
Stopping here to ask what else?
Nothing more to write, nothing else to share,
I should have ended before as I said,
But then again, you know me well,
Sometimes I really, really don't care!
End of Part 1
Add Semester 2 to continue....
Next update: January 24, 2011.
Aah...do not go away, am going to tell you about the highlights of the first semester. Kinda like a recap, eh!
Yeah. So the first part of my PG degree is done and I do not even know where it all went. The semester passed like a breeze. It came, it ruffled a few things and it left.
A different experience altogether I must admit. Looking back now I do realize how things have changed and how they have brought in a change in me. When I first came in here on the 11th of September 2010, I almost like a child left free. I would want to do things just out of curiosity. I would not sleep on time, I ate whatever I felt like, whenever I felt like, bought a lot of things I usually would not. It gave me the kind of freedom I always wanted but never knew I wanted.
I guess most of us go through this phase, some, albeit do it a lot earlier. But as they say, it's never too late.
Well, in my case I have always done things a little later than I should have. So this does not come as a complete surprise. ;)
From my first day when I went to the nearby store to pick up a converter and then buying things I probably would not use until say a few months later, to now having a budget and planning my shopping and even sourcing stuff from only particular shops. I have learnt a lot of things.
I love the fact that during my first week when I did not even know that I was eating half-baked pasta to now almost perfecting it to the T. From not going beyond the simple egg omelette to now having made Gajar ka Halwa. From living a dependent life to living almost on my own. I am really happy and proud of myself and would love to continue this trend.
Now that I have lived the life I always wanted to, its time when I take control of my life. Well begun is half done indeed but you must remember that the other half is still to go.
I need to work hard and keep working to make sure this year turns out to be one of my best so far and I only go from strength to strength.
I did not expect this but it has happened. I do not long for my friends as much, I am much more in control of myself and my feelings. I have made some new friends, who I am ready to trust and forge great bonds with. Right now, they might not be at the same level as my other friends but I have started seeing them in a different light.
From mere colleagues from class, to friends I would call up when times are rough. From flatmates to real buddies. From people I just want to know so that I have some 'firang' friends to now I need them and miss them when they are not around.
These three months have changed a lot of things.
It is vacation time here in Leeds, but back in India it is prime time. People are at their busiest, socializing, attending weddings, making plans for the new year, some new year resolutions. And here, I am trying to wind up my year. Friends have gone to meet family, people are getting serious about their studies and exams. It's funny how things are different on this side of the Indian Ocean.
Right then, it's time for me to get back to work. To promise myself to land a good job here, to study hard and get a distinction, to now make full use of my life and the licence I have to live the life I always wanted to.
This blog is more for me than for the readers. It is for me to remind myself of what I have come here to accomplish.
Thanks guys,
love,
Raging Optimist
Next update: January 24, 2011.
Aah...do not go away, am going to tell you about the highlights of the first semester. Kinda like a recap, eh!
Yeah. So the first part of my PG degree is done and I do not even know where it all went. The semester passed like a breeze. It came, it ruffled a few things and it left.
A different experience altogether I must admit. Looking back now I do realize how things have changed and how they have brought in a change in me. When I first came in here on the 11th of September 2010, I almost like a child left free. I would want to do things just out of curiosity. I would not sleep on time, I ate whatever I felt like, whenever I felt like, bought a lot of things I usually would not. It gave me the kind of freedom I always wanted but never knew I wanted.
I guess most of us go through this phase, some, albeit do it a lot earlier. But as they say, it's never too late.
Well, in my case I have always done things a little later than I should have. So this does not come as a complete surprise. ;)
From my first day when I went to the nearby store to pick up a converter and then buying things I probably would not use until say a few months later, to now having a budget and planning my shopping and even sourcing stuff from only particular shops. I have learnt a lot of things.
I love the fact that during my first week when I did not even know that I was eating half-baked pasta to now almost perfecting it to the T. From not going beyond the simple egg omelette to now having made Gajar ka Halwa. From living a dependent life to living almost on my own. I am really happy and proud of myself and would love to continue this trend.
Now that I have lived the life I always wanted to, its time when I take control of my life. Well begun is half done indeed but you must remember that the other half is still to go.
I need to work hard and keep working to make sure this year turns out to be one of my best so far and I only go from strength to strength.
I did not expect this but it has happened. I do not long for my friends as much, I am much more in control of myself and my feelings. I have made some new friends, who I am ready to trust and forge great bonds with. Right now, they might not be at the same level as my other friends but I have started seeing them in a different light.
From mere colleagues from class, to friends I would call up when times are rough. From flatmates to real buddies. From people I just want to know so that I have some 'firang' friends to now I need them and miss them when they are not around.
These three months have changed a lot of things.
It is vacation time here in Leeds, but back in India it is prime time. People are at their busiest, socializing, attending weddings, making plans for the new year, some new year resolutions. And here, I am trying to wind up my year. Friends have gone to meet family, people are getting serious about their studies and exams. It's funny how things are different on this side of the Indian Ocean.
Right then, it's time for me to get back to work. To promise myself to land a good job here, to study hard and get a distinction, to now make full use of my life and the licence I have to live the life I always wanted to.
This blog is more for me than for the readers. It is for me to remind myself of what I have come here to accomplish.
Thanks guys,
love,
Raging Optimist
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