The MAd MAd AD world

just dont seem to understand them at times....make u sit in office till 12 ..for something that could ve been done before.....next day do not even ask what happened the previous nite...

sit all day n do no work....work happens after lunch....meetings happen during lunch...
n masti happens all day...

office hrs do not exist in their dictionary....we have no timings....its 9 30 onwards !!!


its way past the office time..but no body seems to be ina hurry to go home...all r more than happy to stick around..dont even know if i am cut out for it or not but i still feel good in this industry.....some where somehow i just need to stick around....will find my calling one day !!


in this big MaD mAd Ad world !

WC - 2007

I don't need words !!

Isn't this attitude showing?

come on ppl get ur minds to work..

this is just my point of view n somethin tht i thot of when i saw gibbs batting yest

ok c this...these days its the best batsman tht bats at no 4 for most teams and controls the match ...he gets most pressure n due to experience n talent the guy is able to do well.....wht best position to give to sachin than this...

ENG - Pieteren
AUS - Clarke
RSA - GIbbs
NZL - Styris
SRL - Sangakarra
WI - Lara
Pak - Yousuf
IND - Sachin ???

n he says he wants to open coz he is most comfortable there...agreed...but then if he has changed his game then he does not deserve to play at 1 !! look at jayasuriya he has played for almost 16 years himself n hasnt changed his game n even he was'dropped' !!!he came back n has started playin as well as he used to....n still attacks not like Sachin who says his body is not the same nemore...agreed tht can happen but now come on ..do wht the team needs...be a team man...dnt show tht u r a star n will do as u please..lok at Gibbs he was an opener too n no one can argue over his abilities now....he has not even changed his game yet.....he has been asked to be at 4...he dint say a word...there was news goin around tht he may b dropped from the side...wht does he do...he plays well....he was scoring centuries when this news was doin the rounds....

so all u Sachin fans...i think he is showin attitude..n being starry...rules r same for all... if u have changed ur game suiting ur needs...then the team can also do so to suit the nations needs...n U dnt come between the teams's needs...

AS PUT IN HIS OWN WORDS...TEAM COMES BEFORE SELF !!!

ITS TIME HE PRACTICES WHAT HE PREACHES !!!!!

Should Sachin retire?

hmm....well u may say that who r we to decide or suggest?..right...but then who made Sachin wht he is today in our minds? we....we deserve to question him...we expect it from him coz he has been delivering it...so how come now he has this sudden pressure...n if he cannot take this pressure...then plz leave the field....i never told u to go n become this genius !!...who can do no bad !!!

n now if u have kept their expectations alive for so many years dont tell me u cnt fulfill them now......

if u can't cope up with the increasing pressure plz get up n leave !!
we have a 100 others dyin to come in..unless a Gavaskar leaves u cnt a Sachin..n unless a sachin leaves u wont c a ........... !!

Keep Walking ! - Well done guys...good one !

I saw this ad recently on a bus stop nr Mahim...it was a Johnie Walker ad...it just moved me so much that i had to share it with u people.


It read....DEFEAT.....n over it the famous slogan....(Keep Walking)


3 words but a killa effect it had one me....

thats why I just thought to myself....I think we should move on and stop playing the blame game!!

Why do we believe whatever Chappell says?

Hey guys I think this is not fair. we believe every word of what this Chappell is saying. Does this mean we have no faith in our cricketers. I know that these things have never been this transparent but how can we question their integrity and not question Chappell's intentions?

How dare we say that, Sachin, Dravid and Ganguly have attitude problems and they do not allow youngsters, when it is very well known that Ganguly is the guy who built a team broken by match fixing scandals..Remember Jadeja & Azhar leaving our team beleaguered and others going out ?...It is not easy to fill such a big void but he did a splendid job.

How can we then question them and their attitude....had this been the case, the fallout would have come a long time back..may be when Wright was at the helm.

This Chappell is here to ruin Indian Cricket...and he is taking full advantage of us no being united about this issue. We do not trust our own players who have given their all and have sacrificed so much for the nation....ya agreed they have got good returns as far as money is concerned but I am sure a lot of effort has gone in even coming upto this level...it is not fluke.....so I think it's time we give them their due respect . Let's forgive them for their mistake...and move on !!!

What is this?

Why this weird feeling?
Why can't you decide?
Why can I not let it affect me?
Why do I feel so insecure about you?
Why do I trust you and not trust you?
Why do I always feel I might not be the chosen one?
Why do I doubt myself?
Why am i not clear of what I want in life?
Why am I not sure how to go about doing things?
Why can I not find things the way others can?
Why do I sometimes feel I am dumb?
Why at times I feel inferior with smart people around me?
Why do I act smart?
Why do I do all these things?
Why have I never got an answer for all this?
Why do I look to blame things on others?
Why do I make such careless mistakes?
Why?
Why do I ask GOD all these questions?
Why do I have this hope that I will still be a success?
Why do I still believe I am smart enough?
Why do I have these days of lack of self belief?
Why?
Why?
Why do I not believe in GOD, yet feel there is some connection between the two of us?
Why do people think I am unpredictable?
Why do I love her so much?
Why do I miss my sister so much?
Why do I think so much?
Why am I writing this?
Why do I not want people to read this?

End of an Era

That's what it feels like. these three years have just vanished. I feel like reliving these years again. College is over, someone shake me, I still do not feel it. I don't want to experience it.

Soon we will all be working and all this talk of staying in touch and meeting up and calling and chilling out together will fizzle out. Everyone will be in a world of their own, no one will have time for you. Some will be gone to another country to study, some will be busy with their corporate jobs, some have their boyfriends and girlfriends, some have other groups. All this will not be the same anymore.

Want to make the most of it now, but I know I cannot. Life has come to a weird turn. i do not know where am I headed next. I want a secure future, I am for the first time in my life feeling insecure about my future. I do not know whether I will be successful story or not, whether I will be able to do what people expect from me and most importantly what I expect from myself.

Can I do what I had set out to in the beginning. When I had joined BMM it was for sports journalism !! Now I am not even part of Journalism, people believe I can do Advertising. I told them to believe me. Now what ?

Where should I start from?

Lots of things are at stake. Two lives, two futures are in my hand. Can I handle them? What will happen? I have to win that bet to keep my self respect, to keep the faith he has shown in me.

The Xavierite!

7 years ago I walked in here,

did not get admission, was in despair,

thought it would be nice if I got in here,

Its been 3 years now since am here,

what shall happen now is the fear,

as we end our college life and enter the world,

out of this world of fantasy, right into reality,

soon we will face the brutality,

will soon disappear in the crowd,

we should, we are supposed to standout,

why are we then so skeptical,

about what the future beholds for us,

it hasn’t struck us yet,

but we shall soon move away and forget,

our last few weeks in Xavier’s,

and we do not feel a thing,

do you realize we are evaporating?

Acting busy, running around, tight schedules,

Busy in our own worlds,

Care a damn about the world,

Ready to go out there and start making money,

Is this what all we came here for,

Is this what Xavier’s has taught us,

are we really just money –minded?

Looking for jobs,

Going for every interview,

Ready to fly out of the country,

Let’s just sit back for a few moments,

Relive those memories,

Those happy days of college life,

Our first year of ignorance and enthusiasm,

Second year of victory and seniority,

Third year of responsibility,

These days shall never return,

Our days of fun are ending,

Life’s going to get boring and monotonous,

What we end up doing later,

Not many of us have a clue about that,

But we all want to succeed in life,

That’s what it has come to,

We took a lot from this college,

Do we have anything to give in return?

be a good citizen of this country,

and make your parents proud,

that would be the gift, Xavier’s deserves from all of us,

a humble request from a fellow Xavierite,

I hope I do it too and do it right,

Enough I’ve said, now let me get back,

To prove myself and create a name,

And let them feel proud of me,

I shall come back, Xavier’s will call me.

- a soon-to-be-Ex-Xavierite !

Frustrations

One day or the other we will bear the brunt of somebody else's frustrations.


Don't you think i have enough of it that you want me to hear you out about your frustrations. i know you are frustrated with me and so am I. I ve had enough of you and You ve had enough of me. I think the time has come when we need to part our ways. Should I move out or are you leaving this city, Dad !!!!!!!!!!!

On India's performance in South Africa

This article is the one which was put up on www.cricinfo.com.
Wrote it after India's third loss of the tournament in the recently concluded One day Series in Sotuh Africa.

Well, to start off with let me tell you, this performance by the Indian team does not come as a surprise to me because time and again this has happened with Indian Cricket. Top players go out of form but the board is just not ready to replace some of them with in-form batsmen, no matter how good or bad they are. They not only that, they keep defending them. What happens then ?
These players take their place in the team for granted and their attitude is pathetic; to say the least. There is a lot of politics that goes in behind the selection of players. I feel due to the amount of money involved and the company's reputation of those who sponsor them being at stake they tend to keep those players in the team. That is the reason you see a complete lack of application by the batsmen and a totally senseless batting performance. They do not realise that they have been chosen out of a lot of 1 billion people and if they do not play even 1 good innings there are about 50 odd players ready to take their place and would give their heart and soul to play for the nation. It just seems like within a year of them being in the team they start forgetting that it's their priviledge to play for the country, they are not doing us a favour. This is the attitude that we fans hate and that is the reason we get angry, and our outrage is totally justified. They have no business to tell us that we are overreacting, I would take it if it comes from the mouth of say a Dravid or Bhajji or Kumble who I know are trying their level best and giving it their all, but not from players like Kaif, Raina, Agarkar or Sehwag, who seem to be not affected by the team's poor performance and are more interested in going for safari rides !!!!!

If this is the way it will go on then I feel we might need the services of Mr. Vengsarkar and Gavaskar very soon, who are already there in Africa, probably waiting for a test recall !!!!!!

The Xavier’s Experience

What I began with and where have reached now. It all started as a journey towards finding a meaning for my life. Engineering had changed my life completely, definitely for the worse. I was doing something I had no clue about and something I would never pursue later in life. God knows why then did I choose it in the beginning. Anyway all said and done life had taken a complete u-turn. I had being it all right from square one.
Three years of engineering all gone down the drain? Well, not quite. Had learnt from my mistakes, my decisions, my interests, all these had to be taken care of now and I would be wholly and solely responsible for my life from here onwards. There is no point in regretting later and blaming someone else for ruing my life.
This has become quite preachy and sad, quite unlike me, am sure my friends would vouch for this. Ok so here I was doing BMM, luckily got through to Xavier’s, my dream destination. May be I was supposed to come here sometime in my life hence when I failed to do so for my JC was expectedly disappointed and always thought that it would be my biggest loss. Luckily enough not my loss.
Luck was certainly in my favour because that year only the university decided to increase the seats for BMM to 20 per college and I got in only because of that, there’s more, it only happened that year, never before in its history nor anytime later were more than 60 students allowed to join BMM. I had joined this course thinking that it definitely is simpler than Engg and atleast I would be able to get an all clear here! I used to make fun of my sister who did the same course by calling is Bachelor of Moj Masti. That’s what it seemed to be in the beginning, what with all simple class projects and subjects like communications skills where you get a comprehension in your exam, now frankly tell me on what basis would you call that tough !!!!
And trust me after doing engineering you will find most stuff very simple, atleast it would seem simple. Soon years went by, semesters came and turned the tide. Soon I was in my second year and would be choosing my major next year. Reality struck me !!!!
I had to start racking my brains, put more thought in my projects and may be listen to a few smart people around and get some counseling, all in vain!
Finally decided to go with Advertising. So how did Xavier’s change me? Well I used to call myself “half an engineer and half a media man” in the second year. Now I refrain myself from using the word engineer even for the slightest of things. It gives me nightmares. I still wonder how I managed to scrape through 4-5 exams that I managed to pass. Now getting back to Xavier’s, firstly I got a first class in my very first semester. I can still recall the day I gave my first exam of semester 1 when my hands were shivering writing the exam. My confidence level was at its lowest, had all answers in my mind but my pen refused to budge. I somehow managed to write the answers and was so tensed as if I was giving some IIT entrance exam. Xavier’s gave me that confidence, that belief, the self belief was back, I had found people with similar interests and vastly talented, I still remember seeing the Xavier’s culture made me feel nice to be part of this prestigious college. It definitely has that something extra. People laying their guitars, groups of people singing in one corner, surrounded by all creative people gave me that good feeling, something I had never experienced before. It gave me international exposure.
I happened to be part of the group chosen by SIFE to go for the 3 month Internship in the USA. That was a life changing experience. It instilled great confidence in me.

Never Before

Never before have I done this,
Never before have I felt like this;
This one girl has shaken me over,
She hit my ego and hurt my pride;
I thought we were in for a big fight,
You mockingly kicked me and I got it hard,
I thought it was early..uhmm just a tard;
You asked for my thoughts and here I am penning them for you,
Never before have I done this..believe me its true;
What would I write I thought,
but the pen moved and I began to jot;
At first you seemed like an innocent,sweet, good looking girl,
But later did I find that you are not just that but a real pearl;
In you I found a friend of mine,
Longing for whom I was sometime;
I spoke, you heard, I spoke , you heard,
May be that's what you preferred;
Cherish every moment spent with you,
feels like the most well spent moment;
Such is your importance in my life,
not even sure you realize;
Don't even know what I feel for you,
Crush..Imfatuation..uhmm definitely something more;
So much of my feelings, thoughts, enough didn't we see?
Now let's hear what's your part of this story ?

Ending it this way

Can't imagine that things between us ended in such a way. She was the love of my life, I had dreamt of living my whole life with her and now its all over. All the lovely memories have gone down the drain. Never ever thought that it would be so bad. When it started the whole world seemed like a great place, almost heaven. things we shared, the way she cared, our thoughts, our feelings, the mutual love and respect, I thought she was my ideal woman. The one who would be my partner for life, one who would be my strength, one who gave my life a new direction a new meaning, she was someone for whom i was ready to sacrifice everything, I was ready to lead, accept my responsibilties, was looking forward to living with her sharing life's experiences.
Will I miss her ? Surely I will, I am doing so now. Life seems empty without her, there is no motivation, no reason to live and succeed in life. for whom should i achieve all this, wanted to give her the best life possible, wanted her to be proud of me, wanted to show her the world through my eyes, wanted her to be part of my own small world.
All dreams shattered, I am living a loner's life. Life is moving at a slow pace, things have lost their colour, friends don't cheer me up now. The smile on my face is fake, the feeling of happiness has wandered somewhere.
Felt betrayed at one point, feel lost now. Was she really my ideal girl, was it meant to be like this way ? Will she come back to me ? Will I ever be able to love someone again, will i do justice to somebody's love for me ? Will I be loyal to someone, Will I be able to trust anyone ?
A lot of questions unanswered by me, a lot of questions unanswered by her !!

Family comes first, Love does not come at all !!!!!!!!!!!

Feelings, thoughts and some questions !

Relationship ! A relationship with a person has changed me completely. The time we were together, the time we are spending away from each other. To tell yourself that it is all over sounds simple and was easy at the first go. Takes you a few days and you re back to normal, its only at the later stage when you bump into the person or hear or talk about her that you realise that it hasn't gone. the feling still exists and no matter how hard you try you just cannot forget the person. So how do others say that they have moved on. How is it possible ?
The time you have spent cannot be forgotten, the memories you share, can you just let it go? Is it possible for an individual to have control over one's feelings for a person? Can you after sometime have absolutely no feelings for the person ? How does it feel to know that what you had with that special person is all gone and is over now, you need to forget it all and may be hope to live your life with someone else and also be true to that person. Love someone else !!!!!!!
I certainly believe that you can love only one person in your life and that is the one whom you spend your life with. How can you even think of having relationships which have no meaning and you are on a trial basis and you are just seeing if it works out or not !!!
This theory really baffles me, how do you say that after a break up that it did not work out. God damn, make it work. You love the person and hence you are together and now how the hell do you say that you are leaving her ! Weird things happen in this world, people have their own thoughts and beliefs and we do is argue and ponder what if ! We do not live in an ideal world and not all that happens is good. At this moment of time what you see is a confused state of mind. A mind that is not thinking straight, a mind that is not talking and making sense !
A few more topics to write about. Guess have an opinion on a lot of topics and shall share it with you guys soon !

Why its high time?

Well this was something that was long overdue and i had been planning to make my blog since a few months. As they say better late than never. So now I would put in all my thoughts, my views, opinions and all shit that I think or I write down. Its good to have some virtual presence. there are so many things going on in my mind right now and I just needed to put them in ink. Well this is not exactly ink but I guess suits me fine. saves me all the trouble of looking for a proper pad and then saving it all in a safe place where I can may be refer to it later sometime !
My first post. Not exactly though, had a blog a year ago then lost the password and this US trip mad me forget eveyrthing, did not post anything for a while and it all went. Was too bored at that time to re type all those posts again on to a new blog, but then I thought no dude, you gotta work it out n start blogging. Its fun, ain't it ?