A little sweet, a little sour

It has been one complete year. Life has taken a complete turn, I started off as being unemployed and looking to spend a lot of my money on what seemed like a good education and something that would help me take the next step in my career.

I was all set to step in the land of the Queen and start what would have been the start of my rule. I am back to the country I took birth in, still unemployed, the Queen has taken a big chunk of my savings, I have gained some knowledge which I might have done had I stayed back and done some small time course from some University in India!

Yet, all is not lost and I still do not regret this experience. It gave me a lot more than what I expected of it. It failed to deliver what it promised and yet it delivered things that were not part of the contract. Ahhaa..contract! One word that has not left my life so far and has different meanings for me for different reasons. Anyway, getting back, Leeds was an unforgettable experience and one that has left a deep mark.

The day I landed in Leeds and started spending the money, it was a very different experience. I was not comfortable with the thought of spending almost 3 times of what I had earned so far in a country where I will be forced to stay for atleast a year.

The first few months I spent miserly, saving every penny and writing about every pound that I used up. Slowly, things go better and I got a better hold of myself and my habits.

Now back in the city and I feel people here are so poor and unlucky. Having seen youngsters spend pounds as if they were actually making more money if they spend more, I felt the people here could be given a little more for their efforts. I saw this beggar kid who was singing to me that he wanted to eat rice and dal. I know very well that money given to him might not go there yet my heart melted at his innocent look and smile. I handed him a one rupee and a two rupee coin. I thought it would make him really happy and he would be elated. He was happy nonetheless but the next moment he was seen at the next rickshaw trying to convince another man to let him eat dal and rice.

The rickshaw I sat in had a little tiff with a rickshawalla ahead of him as he banged his vehicle and broke his side view mirror. The fight lasted a good 10 minutes and all I did was observe. I did not utter a word in support of either of them and just saw my meter rising with alarming speed. It did not bother me much as I knew that as much as they fought it was obvious that the other guy would not give him any damages as he was too poor and could not afford a cut from his meagre salary. A little later when I got off, I saw the meter rating and it was much more than what it should have been, I promptly took the cash out and gave him the money and did not bother asking to reduce it for the time wasted at the signal.

I did not do him a favour, nor am I saying that I am a generous guy. I just thought to myself, a few bucks here and there might not make a big difference to me, but I know this rickshawalla will feel happy that his amount was not reduced and he got a little more than what he would have.

To see people spending money like there really is no tomorrow and to come back and see people being happy at having made a little extra. I am back in the country, am back to where I belong, and yet I ain't happy.

This small little incident made me think, is it a little sweet or is it a little sour!

Living it, loving it!

Don't know where to begin this one from. To think of it, I did not ever imagine I would be doing this. Staying abroad, doing my masters in a foreign country. Life...is in my control.

This is something I always wanted but never knew. Something I learnt thanks to my biggest lesson in life, engineering! Yes, its true, my biggest failure in life has been the biggest lesson for me. It let me find who I really was, it let me dare to take a step back to take two steps ahead. It allowed me to take decisions for myself. It was then that I realized that I wanted to live life my way. When I could make my decision and be happy or sad about it. Be able to blame myself if I had to for anything that was to happen from there on. And I am loving it, living it.

From that time to now, things have changed, but for the better. Life has improved at every stage and it has only given me reasons to smile. I like it this way.

Now I am controlling my life more than I ever have. Earlier I would just do what I would like to but yet be dependent in a way. Now, not anymore. I am liking the part where I wake myself up, I feed myself, I clean up the place and I dirty it. I have to look for everything that I have and everything that I do not. I have to go out and get things what I do not have but want. It has never been better.

Yes, I do miss a few things. Who am I lying to, I miss a lot of things, but then this is something I am willing to give up anything for. I have my freedom!

Have been thinking for a while that I would write about my observations and picks from Leeds. I thought that would be my first blog piece once I reach here. But then again am happy that I have the ability to surprise myself.

Am going to make double use of this blog. I have already written what I wanted to so now am going to use the same blog to talk about the things that I find worth writing about.

First and foremost, getting used to Toilet Paper. It's different, it's weird and at times it seems unclean but that is how it is going to be. Sorry, gross start!
I do not like as many options as you have here. Like choosing potatoes - you have baking potato, baby potato, new potato, large potato and god knows what all!

Electric plates - it took me three weeks to realize the vegetables that I was cooking were undercooked because the electric plates take much longer than what LPG would.

Duvets - I hate them. They are the worst things that could happen to a college student. They are
way too comfortable to allow someone to get out of them. They need to be discontinued with immediate effect.

Mobile phones - not just any of them. There are it seems just two brands in the world now - its either BlackBerry or Apple iPhone. People want it, people have it and people crave it. These are the only three types of people that I see around me now and I am fed-up of them. I hate them, I detest them.

Right now I cannot think of anymore, but I swear when I have a good big list I am going to come back and list them down to remind myself of them.