In the making is a bundle of joy,
In the making is a precious toy.
It took a while coming,
but when it did, took us all by surprise.
Some were shocked, some were plain happy,
and there were some who jumped in delight
& there I was, who couldn't even be part of it!
But am still elated, at the thought of being promoted.
An added responsibility for you two,
Be rest assured we will be there too.
Let the feeling sink in
& give us some time
To begin the celebrations
the joy & the shine.
Let me end on this happy note
& pray good things for you both.
coz in the making is OUR bundle of joy,
In the making is OUR precious toy!!
This one's dedicated to my sister and my jiajji for obvious reasons.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Monday, October 08, 2007
Rock n Roll
Funny how this term has become the perfect way to describe my life. its like a ball which that keeps on bouncing. you like the attitude of bouncing back , not realising that it is hurting itself by touching the ground every time it bounces.
I feel i have no control over it. what has it come to, my life, i don't know where is it taking me, why is it doing wht it is doing. life is a rollercoaster. i thought i had everything under control till a few days back, but then again, it decides to surprise me. One person has so much of power, irresponsible it is.
Lack of stability. its is hurting, i ma ready to bounce back, but worried to see the scenes when i bounce. not sure what i will be seeing. will i be able to digest it, will i be able to face it. i am worried, but i am still looking forward to it. i like challenges, may be i am not all that successful excelling at them, but still the thrill of facing a new one is more than enough to motivate me.
a challenge awaits me, a bomb, a fire cracker, or could all be just an ordinary spark. but yet, i want to see it. i am excited, i am nervous, i am insecure, i am speechless. i want things to get over fast, yet things to slow down for me to enjoy or sulk in the moment.
i am dying, but i want to enjoy this death. i am smiling at the prospect of seeing death, i am waiting with expectant eyes. i want to just go out there and have fun. i want to live the moment.
i know GOD is with me, i know he will only let good happen to me. i trust him, i have belief in him. i am going to win.
i am goonna ROck and i am gonna ROll !!!
I feel i have no control over it. what has it come to, my life, i don't know where is it taking me, why is it doing wht it is doing. life is a rollercoaster. i thought i had everything under control till a few days back, but then again, it decides to surprise me. One person has so much of power, irresponsible it is.
Lack of stability. its is hurting, i ma ready to bounce back, but worried to see the scenes when i bounce. not sure what i will be seeing. will i be able to digest it, will i be able to face it. i am worried, but i am still looking forward to it. i like challenges, may be i am not all that successful excelling at them, but still the thrill of facing a new one is more than enough to motivate me.
a challenge awaits me, a bomb, a fire cracker, or could all be just an ordinary spark. but yet, i want to see it. i am excited, i am nervous, i am insecure, i am speechless. i want things to get over fast, yet things to slow down for me to enjoy or sulk in the moment.
i am dying, but i want to enjoy this death. i am smiling at the prospect of seeing death, i am waiting with expectant eyes. i want to just go out there and have fun. i want to live the moment.
i know GOD is with me, i know he will only let good happen to me. i trust him, i have belief in him. i am going to win.
i am goonna ROck and i am gonna ROll !!!
Friday, September 21, 2007
It was more like Vashi Blues!
There we were, a group of six friends all set to enjoy our weekend away from Mumbai, on the outskirts, though geographically we were still inside it! I had been thinking for a while now that whenever someone talks about a long drive why do most of us think of going to Cchurchgate or a Worli seaface? Is there no other place in and around Mumbai which is as pleasing as those places? Do we always have to go ‘townside’ for a enjoyable experience!
So I came up with this thought of going to Vashi for dinner that weekend with my bunch of hooligans. Well, we do not act like one, just that I like referring to them by that name. Anyway, getting back, we were all awaiting this weekend and this long trip to Vashi. One of the most well planned suburb of Mumbai, this place is like another country. Divided into sectors, broad roads, clean pavements, no hawkers, it was like we were in
About 95 minutes later we finally reached Centre one, the new mall in Vashi. We were hungry by now as it was a little past regular dinner time and thus we rushed to the restaurant, ‘Bombay Blues’. We had no idea what lay in store for us. We started with onion rings, the desi starter. We were surprised to see the waiter get those rings on a steel rod not accompanied with a plate, and on inquiring we were taken aback by his statement. “ This is how we serve to all our customers, sir! You find this weird is it?”
Definitely not expecting such an answer we went ahead and ordered for some nachos and cheese and a fresh lime soda. The waiter was on fire and the service was top notch. The cheese tasted as if it was rotten and the our Mr.Sympathetic got us fresh lime soda without any soda. Well if that wasn’t enough, the Pepsi we got was completely fizzed out! We then started to wonder whether coming all the way to Vashi did make sense or not, or was it just a small tiny winy mistake!
A restaurant with such a good reputation, well at least outside Vashi, could falter so badly and did not even have a good excuse to fall back on! We were all very disappointed with the service and only after a little convincing by the Manager of the Restaurant did we think of paying them a little amount for the onions rings and Pepsi.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Take a Mental Video
That's how I felt this time during my birthday week. It just kept on going and i think it ended yesterday with my birthday treat.
started with a big bang with my surprise birthday party by some real close friends on a monday....!! 4 days in advance n something that was totally and completely unexpected. it was one of the most memorable birthday surprise parties ever for me. I cannot recall any surprise party I had before so this one goes right at the top.
To think of it, I used to keep doing these pranks n fool people but this time i got conned and could not find out that my friends had planned a party!! Can't believe but i actually had tears in eyes at the end of the day to think that i was blessed with such cool and wonderful friends.
From then on, thursday happened to be the next day for another birthday celebration...we all were going to pick up frm bro-in-law and at the airport in the middle of the night..well actually at around 4 in the morning....cut another cake...made by my sis...another sweet surprise...n being surrounded by some of the people closest to me was the cherry on the top.
Next day, the 10th, 'THE DAy' i reach office and boom everybody was waiting for me to come ....all the hoo halla that i got surrounded by was a sight to see. Later in the evening was lucky to have another cake for myself. another celebration with a few kicks n punches as birthday bumps..and the regular cake smudging on the face not just once but twice...good and taken down all in good spirit...actually more than happy to have the cake being smacked on the face.
yaa, it's not over yet, then that night i left for my cousins place. after reaching i found out that they were planning to have a small get together for me and my niece whose birthday happened to be a few days later. It did happen and what a stage that was..literally! at aapni dhani...on the stage wih the dancers around us and music played in the background and hounded by my sister and cousins doing the same thing, potofying cake on my face.
had a rocking time...the first time that i had such a wonderful birthday..though missed the regular one i used to have with my school buddies coming over and we going out to eat chinese!!
but this change was a welcome one and though missed my buddies am sure will have our kinda party when we have our re union.
started with a big bang with my surprise birthday party by some real close friends on a monday....!! 4 days in advance n something that was totally and completely unexpected. it was one of the most memorable birthday surprise parties ever for me. I cannot recall any surprise party I had before so this one goes right at the top.
To think of it, I used to keep doing these pranks n fool people but this time i got conned and could not find out that my friends had planned a party!! Can't believe but i actually had tears in eyes at the end of the day to think that i was blessed with such cool and wonderful friends.
From then on, thursday happened to be the next day for another birthday celebration...we all were going to pick up frm bro-in-law and at the airport in the middle of the night..well actually at around 4 in the morning....cut another cake...made by my sis...another sweet surprise...n being surrounded by some of the people closest to me was the cherry on the top.
Next day, the 10th, 'THE DAy' i reach office and boom everybody was waiting for me to come ....all the hoo halla that i got surrounded by was a sight to see. Later in the evening was lucky to have another cake for myself. another celebration with a few kicks n punches as birthday bumps..and the regular cake smudging on the face not just once but twice...good and taken down all in good spirit...actually more than happy to have the cake being smacked on the face.
yaa, it's not over yet, then that night i left for my cousins place. after reaching i found out that they were planning to have a small get together for me and my niece whose birthday happened to be a few days later. It did happen and what a stage that was..literally! at aapni dhani...on the stage wih the dancers around us and music played in the background and hounded by my sister and cousins doing the same thing, potofying cake on my face.
had a rocking time...the first time that i had such a wonderful birthday..though missed the regular one i used to have with my school buddies coming over and we going out to eat chinese!!
but this change was a welcome one and though missed my buddies am sure will have our kinda party when we have our re union.
back to square one!
yeh kya ho raha hai !!
this loss must ve reminded dravid of the bad 'ol days ! when he used to b d sole anchor n other big hitters used to get out to leave him with a fifty for a losing cause...
yet again the ppl at d top faltered and d ppl lower down d order had to suffer...tho karthik still came up trumps...remaining not out till d end...
a run out to start with n with gambir as tentative as ever...d pressure was always on dravid n tendlya to perform n score at almost a run a ball to keep hopes of winning alive
tendlya as usual disappointed...n dravid tried but could not get much support from d other end...so it was left to karthik n d others to try n give a fight..which unfortunately they cud not n in d end lost by a huge margin of over 100 runs...
this sets a bad tone for d rest of the series n i feel recovering frm here is nt goin to b all tht easy..but wht the hell..good teams r able to turn tides in their favour n i believe we have one gud team in the makin..lest we can get rid of d stars n get in some performers..its high time d board decided to switch to youngsters..
may b the twenty20 may throw up a few..
am not sayin we will def do well with youngsters but we have seen wht experience has got us.....they have d fear of failure lingerin so hard in their minds tht they cannot see victory at any place n if not got rid of them soon this feeling might sink in with the youngsters too n we wud b the windies..
its time to bid adieu to the likes of tendulkar, ganguly, dravid, n kumble n time to breed in some new talent..
they wud need time to groom n blossom..
now is the best time...!!!!
(India v/s Eng !st ODI - Eng 288/2 - Ind 184 All Out
this loss must ve reminded dravid of the bad 'ol days ! when he used to b d sole anchor n other big hitters used to get out to leave him with a fifty for a losing cause...
yet again the ppl at d top faltered and d ppl lower down d order had to suffer...tho karthik still came up trumps...remaining not out till d end...
a run out to start with n with gambir as tentative as ever...d pressure was always on dravid n tendlya to perform n score at almost a run a ball to keep hopes of winning alive
tendlya as usual disappointed...n dravid tried but could not get much support from d other end...so it was left to karthik n d others to try n give a fight..which unfortunately they cud not n in d end lost by a huge margin of over 100 runs...
this sets a bad tone for d rest of the series n i feel recovering frm here is nt goin to b all tht easy..but wht the hell..good teams r able to turn tides in their favour n i believe we have one gud team in the makin..lest we can get rid of d stars n get in some performers..its high time d board decided to switch to youngsters..
may b the twenty20 may throw up a few..
am not sayin we will def do well with youngsters but we have seen wht experience has got us.....they have d fear of failure lingerin so hard in their minds tht they cannot see victory at any place n if not got rid of them soon this feeling might sink in with the youngsters too n we wud b the windies..
its time to bid adieu to the likes of tendulkar, ganguly, dravid, n kumble n time to breed in some new talent..
they wud need time to groom n blossom..
now is the best time...!!!!
(India v/s Eng !st ODI - Eng 288/2 - Ind 184 All Out
Friday, July 27, 2007
It keeps getting awkward
hmm...well it does...esp when she is someone who is related to you.someone you are sure to bump in to quite regularly...what to do now? will someone ever find out?...what if sis finds out? what?
being in the same room is difficult now...we do not look each other in the eye....one due to hatred...other due to other's hatred.....weird isn't it?...naah i say...
to be myself is difficult now...i am conscious...i am controlled...i am different...i am unable to do things as i used to..unable to say what i feel like.....i am unable to act as i am supposed to....how long can we carry on this game? how long can we try and keep it going.....with the chemistry that we had ..to d fun and entertainment we were....is it possible for no one to notice a change there?...
at one point we needed people to ask us to stop talking and leave to now where we need someone around to talk to..coz we do not talk to each other..........how will it work out?...
am nervous..am tensed...
i do not even know if i am over her or not....have i started liking someone already?.....what has happened to me...saying this it self makes me feel so shallow.....how could i? i do not even know about her feelings..i have no clue about mine either..do i hate her still....can i ever get back with her?...will i have to let others know about it?..
its getting awkward....its just keeps getting awkward.........rather awkward !!!
frustrations...fears....
will i be able to love someone as much...will i ever forget her?....will i move on? have i already?
questions...questions...questions....running all over my mind...
just stop thinking and live as if nothing has happened...simple , huh?...
yes it is...until i start thinking about it again !
SIMPLE...SEE TOLD YOU !
being in the same room is difficult now...we do not look each other in the eye....one due to hatred...other due to other's hatred.....weird isn't it?...naah i say...
to be myself is difficult now...i am conscious...i am controlled...i am different...i am unable to do things as i used to..unable to say what i feel like.....i am unable to act as i am supposed to....how long can we carry on this game? how long can we try and keep it going.....with the chemistry that we had ..to d fun and entertainment we were....is it possible for no one to notice a change there?...
at one point we needed people to ask us to stop talking and leave to now where we need someone around to talk to..coz we do not talk to each other..........how will it work out?...
am nervous..am tensed...
i do not even know if i am over her or not....have i started liking someone already?.....what has happened to me...saying this it self makes me feel so shallow.....how could i? i do not even know about her feelings..i have no clue about mine either..do i hate her still....can i ever get back with her?...will i have to let others know about it?..
its getting awkward....its just keeps getting awkward.........rather awkward !!!
frustrations...fears....
will i be able to love someone as much...will i ever forget her?....will i move on? have i already?
questions...questions...questions....running all over my mind...
just stop thinking and live as if nothing has happened...simple , huh?...
yes it is...until i start thinking about it again !
SIMPLE...SEE TOLD YOU !
the END
so, it finally came, one that has lasted longer than the other ones. this one wasn't that big a deal when it came to facing life after it. May be i ve become stronger.....naahh who am i am kidding...may be i had experienced it before and thus the effect was less this time. Don't know the answer, but sure can't any damaging consequences. this time I do not want anyone's pity and sympathy....did not want it before too but kind off liked it....this time I am yet to open my heart to someone and bore them with my story....or rather my 'love life'!! as they like calling it.
So what has changed....i do not know....this time i did not even tell her its over....i love technology....u can end a relationship through an SMS !!!...wonder when they will have SMS'es that will read..TALAQ TALAQ TALAQ.. and it will all be over in one go !!...in 1 rupee !!...whoaaa that will be some big day i reckon....
anyway..getting back to my sob story...how it happened?....no one wants to know but i want to say..that's what i like about blogs....cool, eh?
that nite..me and my friend were discussing it..(my 'lowe life' duhh )...and she told me to leave her and stop this mess....told me it would affect me later and she couldn't see me suffer.....was so true....i wouldn't wanna suffer for someone who right at the end moment tells me that dude....u r not the one !!...i mean...WHAT THE &^$% !!!
what have i been doing all this while..trying to make her feel special..trying to give her every inch of my soul..trying to make her happy with whatever little i can......trying to make things work...even without much help from any quarter....and all i asked for in return is some sign which tells me she loves me...is it too much to ask?..
am i asking too much when i say please give me some attention and not the 'boy' you think u like....but r not sure..... am i someone in ur life?....do i have any importance? why do i keep asking myself and you this question again and again...there must be something to it.....
my friend gave me the answer....dude....ur no one in her life....
she is not getting the attention she wants from her guy..so she moved on to you...consciously or uncosciously god knows..but she did....n u r giving her all the attention in d world...may b more.....so she gives u these little hints once a while...n u go bonkers !! ....
n i think.....DUDE I WAS SO DUMB !! how could i not see all this before...how could i let her take advantage of me for so long without realising it...
i do not deserve it .....i do not deserve to be kicked around like this...
she had taken things in her hand far too long....its time i took it back...wrest the powers back in my own hands....so i called it quits !..its over.....nothing new...no new reason...same old.....i did not want to celebrate an anniversary with a girl who does not even know whether she likes me or not...had given her enough time....had taken enough time.............enough is enough........
its over !!
So what has changed....i do not know....this time i did not even tell her its over....i love technology....u can end a relationship through an SMS !!!...wonder when they will have SMS'es that will read..TALAQ TALAQ TALAQ.. and it will all be over in one go !!...in 1 rupee !!...whoaaa that will be some big day i reckon....
anyway..getting back to my sob story...how it happened?....no one wants to know but i want to say..that's what i like about blogs....cool, eh?
that nite..me and my friend were discussing it..(my 'lowe life' duhh )...and she told me to leave her and stop this mess....told me it would affect me later and she couldn't see me suffer.....was so true....i wouldn't wanna suffer for someone who right at the end moment tells me that dude....u r not the one !!...i mean...WHAT THE &^$% !!!
what have i been doing all this while..trying to make her feel special..trying to give her every inch of my soul..trying to make her happy with whatever little i can......trying to make things work...even without much help from any quarter....and all i asked for in return is some sign which tells me she loves me...is it too much to ask?..
am i asking too much when i say please give me some attention and not the 'boy' you think u like....but r not sure..... am i someone in ur life?....do i have any importance? why do i keep asking myself and you this question again and again...there must be something to it.....
my friend gave me the answer....dude....ur no one in her life....
she is not getting the attention she wants from her guy..so she moved on to you...consciously or uncosciously god knows..but she did....n u r giving her all the attention in d world...may b more.....so she gives u these little hints once a while...n u go bonkers !! ....
n i think.....DUDE I WAS SO DUMB !! how could i not see all this before...how could i let her take advantage of me for so long without realising it...
i do not deserve it .....i do not deserve to be kicked around like this...
she had taken things in her hand far too long....its time i took it back...wrest the powers back in my own hands....so i called it quits !..its over.....nothing new...no new reason...same old.....i did not want to celebrate an anniversary with a girl who does not even know whether she likes me or not...had given her enough time....had taken enough time.............enough is enough........
its over !!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
The MAd MAd AD world
just dont seem to understand them at times....make u sit in office till 12 ..for something that could ve been done before.....next day do not even ask what happened the previous nite...
sit all day n do no work....work happens after lunch....meetings happen during lunch...
n masti happens all day...
office hrs do not exist in their dictionary....we have no timings....its 9 30 onwards !!!
its way past the office time..but no body seems to be ina hurry to go home...all r more than happy to stick around..dont even know if i am cut out for it or not but i still feel good in this industry.....some where somehow i just need to stick around....will find my calling one day !!
in this big MaD mAd Ad world !
sit all day n do no work....work happens after lunch....meetings happen during lunch...
n masti happens all day...
office hrs do not exist in their dictionary....we have no timings....its 9 30 onwards !!!
its way past the office time..but no body seems to be ina hurry to go home...all r more than happy to stick around..dont even know if i am cut out for it or not but i still feel good in this industry.....some where somehow i just need to stick around....will find my calling one day !!
in this big MaD mAd Ad world !
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Isn't this attitude showing?
come on ppl get ur minds to work..
this is just my point of view n somethin tht i thot of when i saw gibbs batting yest
ok c this...these days its the best batsman tht bats at no 4 for most teams and controls the match ...he gets most pressure n due to experience n talent the guy is able to do well.....wht best position to give to sachin than this...
ENG - Pieteren
AUS - Clarke
RSA - GIbbs
NZL - Styris
SRL - Sangakarra
WI - Lara
Pak - Yousuf
IND - Sachin ???
n he says he wants to open coz he is most comfortable there...agreed...but then if he has changed his game then he does not deserve to play at 1 !! look at jayasuriya he has played for almost 16 years himself n hasnt changed his game n even he was'dropped' !!!he came back n has started playin as well as he used to....n still attacks not like Sachin who says his body is not the same nemore...agreed tht can happen but now come on ..do wht the team needs...be a team man...dnt show tht u r a star n will do as u please..lok at Gibbs he was an opener too n no one can argue over his abilities now....he has not even changed his game yet.....he has been asked to be at 4...he dint say a word...there was news goin around tht he may b dropped from the side...wht does he do...he plays well....he was scoring centuries when this news was doin the rounds....
so all u Sachin fans...i think he is showin attitude..n being starry...rules r same for all... if u have changed ur game suiting ur needs...then the team can also do so to suit the nations needs...n U dnt come between the teams's needs...
AS PUT IN HIS OWN WORDS...TEAM COMES BEFORE SELF !!!
ITS TIME HE PRACTICES WHAT HE PREACHES !!!!!
this is just my point of view n somethin tht i thot of when i saw gibbs batting yest
ok c this...these days its the best batsman tht bats at no 4 for most teams and controls the match ...he gets most pressure n due to experience n talent the guy is able to do well.....wht best position to give to sachin than this...
ENG - Pieteren
AUS - Clarke
RSA - GIbbs
NZL - Styris
SRL - Sangakarra
WI - Lara
Pak - Yousuf
IND - Sachin ???
n he says he wants to open coz he is most comfortable there...agreed...but then if he has changed his game then he does not deserve to play at 1 !! look at jayasuriya he has played for almost 16 years himself n hasnt changed his game n even he was'dropped' !!!he came back n has started playin as well as he used to....n still attacks not like Sachin who says his body is not the same nemore...agreed tht can happen but now come on ..do wht the team needs...be a team man...dnt show tht u r a star n will do as u please..lok at Gibbs he was an opener too n no one can argue over his abilities now....he has not even changed his game yet.....he has been asked to be at 4...he dint say a word...there was news goin around tht he may b dropped from the side...wht does he do...he plays well....he was scoring centuries when this news was doin the rounds....
so all u Sachin fans...i think he is showin attitude..n being starry...rules r same for all... if u have changed ur game suiting ur needs...then the team can also do so to suit the nations needs...n U dnt come between the teams's needs...
AS PUT IN HIS OWN WORDS...TEAM COMES BEFORE SELF !!!
ITS TIME HE PRACTICES WHAT HE PREACHES !!!!!
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Should Sachin retire?
hmm....well u may say that who r we to decide or suggest?..right...but then who made Sachin wht he is today in our minds? we....we deserve to question him...we expect it from him coz he has been delivering it...so how come now he has this sudden pressure...n if he cannot take this pressure...then plz leave the field....i never told u to go n become this genius !!...who can do no bad !!!
n now if u have kept their expectations alive for so many years dont tell me u cnt fulfill them now......
if u can't cope up with the increasing pressure plz get up n leave !!
we have a 100 others dyin to come in..unless a Gavaskar leaves u cnt a Sachin..n unless a sachin leaves u wont c a ........... !!
n now if u have kept their expectations alive for so many years dont tell me u cnt fulfill them now......
if u can't cope up with the increasing pressure plz get up n leave !!
we have a 100 others dyin to come in..unless a Gavaskar leaves u cnt a Sachin..n unless a sachin leaves u wont c a ........... !!
Keep Walking ! - Well done guys...good one !
I saw this ad recently on a bus stop nr Mahim...it was a Johnie Walker ad...it just moved me so much that i had to share it with u people.
It read....DEFEAT.....n over it the famous slogan....(Keep Walking)
3 words but a killa effect it had one me....
thats why I just thought to myself....I think we should move on and stop playing the blame game!!
It read....DEFEAT.....n over it the famous slogan....(Keep Walking)
3 words but a killa effect it had one me....
thats why I just thought to myself....I think we should move on and stop playing the blame game!!
Why do we believe whatever Chappell says?
Hey guys I think this is not fair. we believe every word of what this Chappell is saying. Does this mean we have no faith in our cricketers. I know that these things have never been this transparent but how can we question their integrity and not question Chappell's intentions?
How dare we say that, Sachin, Dravid and Ganguly have attitude problems and they do not allow youngsters, when it is very well known that Ganguly is the guy who built a team broken by match fixing scandals..Remember Jadeja & Azhar leaving our team beleaguered and others going out ?...It is not easy to fill such a big void but he did a splendid job.
How can we then question them and their attitude....had this been the case, the fallout would have come a long time back..may be when Wright was at the helm.
This Chappell is here to ruin Indian Cricket...and he is taking full advantage of us no being united about this issue. We do not trust our own players who have given their all and have sacrificed so much for the nation....ya agreed they have got good returns as far as money is concerned but I am sure a lot of effort has gone in even coming upto this level...it is not fluke.....so I think it's time we give them their due respect . Let's forgive them for their mistake...and move on !!!
How dare we say that, Sachin, Dravid and Ganguly have attitude problems and they do not allow youngsters, when it is very well known that Ganguly is the guy who built a team broken by match fixing scandals..Remember Jadeja & Azhar leaving our team beleaguered and others going out ?...It is not easy to fill such a big void but he did a splendid job.
How can we then question them and their attitude....had this been the case, the fallout would have come a long time back..may be when Wright was at the helm.
This Chappell is here to ruin Indian Cricket...and he is taking full advantage of us no being united about this issue. We do not trust our own players who have given their all and have sacrificed so much for the nation....ya agreed they have got good returns as far as money is concerned but I am sure a lot of effort has gone in even coming upto this level...it is not fluke.....so I think it's time we give them their due respect . Let's forgive them for their mistake...and move on !!!
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
What is this?
Why this weird feeling?
Why can't you decide?
Why can I not let it affect me?
Why do I feel so insecure about you?
Why do I trust you and not trust you?
Why do I always feel I might not be the chosen one?
Why do I doubt myself?
Why am i not clear of what I want in life?
Why am I not sure how to go about doing things?
Why can I not find things the way others can?
Why do I sometimes feel I am dumb?
Why at times I feel inferior with smart people around me?
Why do I act smart?
Why do I do all these things?
Why have I never got an answer for all this?
Why do I look to blame things on others?
Why do I make such careless mistakes?
Why?
Why do I ask GOD all these questions?
Why do I have this hope that I will still be a success?
Why do I still believe I am smart enough?
Why do I have these days of lack of self belief?
Why?
Why?
Why do I not believe in GOD, yet feel there is some connection between the two of us?
Why do people think I am unpredictable?
Why do I love her so much?
Why do I miss my sister so much?
Why do I think so much?
Why am I writing this?
Why do I not want people to read this?
Why can't you decide?
Why can I not let it affect me?
Why do I feel so insecure about you?
Why do I trust you and not trust you?
Why do I always feel I might not be the chosen one?
Why do I doubt myself?
Why am i not clear of what I want in life?
Why am I not sure how to go about doing things?
Why can I not find things the way others can?
Why do I sometimes feel I am dumb?
Why at times I feel inferior with smart people around me?
Why do I act smart?
Why do I do all these things?
Why have I never got an answer for all this?
Why do I look to blame things on others?
Why do I make such careless mistakes?
Why?
Why do I ask GOD all these questions?
Why do I have this hope that I will still be a success?
Why do I still believe I am smart enough?
Why do I have these days of lack of self belief?
Why?
Why?
Why do I not believe in GOD, yet feel there is some connection between the two of us?
Why do people think I am unpredictable?
Why do I love her so much?
Why do I miss my sister so much?
Why do I think so much?
Why am I writing this?
Why do I not want people to read this?
End of an Era
That's what it feels like. these three years have just vanished. I feel like reliving these years again. College is over, someone shake me, I still do not feel it. I don't want to experience it.
Soon we will all be working and all this talk of staying in touch and meeting up and calling and chilling out together will fizzle out. Everyone will be in a world of their own, no one will have time for you. Some will be gone to another country to study, some will be busy with their corporate jobs, some have their boyfriends and girlfriends, some have other groups. All this will not be the same anymore.
Want to make the most of it now, but I know I cannot. Life has come to a weird turn. i do not know where am I headed next. I want a secure future, I am for the first time in my life feeling insecure about my future. I do not know whether I will be successful story or not, whether I will be able to do what people expect from me and most importantly what I expect from myself.
Can I do what I had set out to in the beginning. When I had joined BMM it was for sports journalism !! Now I am not even part of Journalism, people believe I can do Advertising. I told them to believe me. Now what ?
Where should I start from?
Lots of things are at stake. Two lives, two futures are in my hand. Can I handle them? What will happen? I have to win that bet to keep my self respect, to keep the faith he has shown in me.
Soon we will all be working and all this talk of staying in touch and meeting up and calling and chilling out together will fizzle out. Everyone will be in a world of their own, no one will have time for you. Some will be gone to another country to study, some will be busy with their corporate jobs, some have their boyfriends and girlfriends, some have other groups. All this will not be the same anymore.
Want to make the most of it now, but I know I cannot. Life has come to a weird turn. i do not know where am I headed next. I want a secure future, I am for the first time in my life feeling insecure about my future. I do not know whether I will be successful story or not, whether I will be able to do what people expect from me and most importantly what I expect from myself.
Can I do what I had set out to in the beginning. When I had joined BMM it was for sports journalism !! Now I am not even part of Journalism, people believe I can do Advertising. I told them to believe me. Now what ?
Where should I start from?
Lots of things are at stake. Two lives, two futures are in my hand. Can I handle them? What will happen? I have to win that bet to keep my self respect, to keep the faith he has shown in me.
Monday, February 12, 2007
The Xavierite!
did not get admission, was in despair,
thought it would be nice if I got in here,
Its been 3 years now since am here,
what shall happen now is the fear,
as we end our college life and enter the world,
out of this world of fantasy, right into reality,
soon we will face the brutality,
will soon disappear in the crowd,
we should, we are supposed to standout,
why are we then so skeptical,
about what the future beholds for us,
it hasn’t struck us yet,
but we shall soon move away and forget,
our last few weeks in Xavier’s,
and we do not feel a thing,
do you realize we are evaporating?
Acting busy, running around, tight schedules,
Busy in our own worlds,
Care a damn about the world,
Ready to go out there and start making money,
Is this what all we came here for,
Is this what Xavier’s has taught us,
are we really just money –minded?
Looking for jobs,
Going for every interview,
Ready to fly out of the country,
Let’s just sit back for a few moments,
Relive those memories,
Those happy days of college life,
Our first year of ignorance and enthusiasm,
Second year of victory and seniority,
Third year of responsibility,
These days shall never return,
Our days of fun are ending,
Life’s going to get boring and monotonous,
What we end up doing later,
Not many of us have a clue about that,
But we all want to succeed in life,
That’s what it has come to,
We took a lot from this college,
Do we have anything to give in return?
be a good citizen of this country,
and make your parents proud,
that would be the gift, Xavier’s deserves from all of us,
a humble request from a fellow Xavierite,
I hope I do it too and do it right,
Enough I’ve said, now let me get back,
To prove myself and create a name,
And let them feel proud of me,
I shall come back, Xavier’s will call me.
- a soon-to-be-Ex-Xavierite !
Friday, January 26, 2007
Frustrations
One day or the other we will bear the brunt of somebody else's frustrations.
Don't you think i have enough of it that you want me to hear you out about your frustrations. i know you are frustrated with me and so am I. I ve had enough of you and You ve had enough of me. I think the time has come when we need to part our ways. Should I move out or are you leaving this city, Dad !!!!!!!!!!!
Don't you think i have enough of it that you want me to hear you out about your frustrations. i know you are frustrated with me and so am I. I ve had enough of you and You ve had enough of me. I think the time has come when we need to part our ways. Should I move out or are you leaving this city, Dad !!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 21, 2006
On India's performance in South Africa
This article is the one which was put up on www.cricinfo.com.
Wrote it after India's third loss of the tournament in the recently concluded One day Series in Sotuh Africa.
Well, to start off with let me tell you, this performance by the Indian team does not come as a surprise to me because time and again this has happened with Indian Cricket. Top players go out of form but the board is just not ready to replace some of them with in-form batsmen, no matter how good or bad they are. They not only that, they keep defending them. What happens then ?
These players take their place in the team for granted and their attitude is pathetic; to say the least. There is a lot of politics that goes in behind the selection of players. I feel due to the amount of money involved and the company's reputation of those who sponsor them being at stake they tend to keep those players in the team. That is the reason you see a complete lack of application by the batsmen and a totally senseless batting performance. They do not realise that they have been chosen out of a lot of 1 billion people and if they do not play even 1 good innings there are about 50 odd players ready to take their place and would give their heart and soul to play for the nation. It just seems like within a year of them being in the team they start forgetting that it's their priviledge to play for the country, they are not doing us a favour. This is the attitude that we fans hate and that is the reason we get angry, and our outrage is totally justified. They have no business to tell us that we are overreacting, I would take it if it comes from the mouth of say a Dravid or Bhajji or Kumble who I know are trying their level best and giving it their all, but not from players like Kaif, Raina, Agarkar or Sehwag, who seem to be not affected by the team's poor performance and are more interested in going for safari rides !!!!!
If this is the way it will go on then I feel we might need the services of Mr. Vengsarkar and Gavaskar very soon, who are already there in Africa, probably waiting for a test recall !!!!!!
Wrote it after India's third loss of the tournament in the recently concluded One day Series in Sotuh Africa.
Well, to start off with let me tell you, this performance by the Indian team does not come as a surprise to me because time and again this has happened with Indian Cricket. Top players go out of form but the board is just not ready to replace some of them with in-form batsmen, no matter how good or bad they are. They not only that, they keep defending them. What happens then ?
These players take their place in the team for granted and their attitude is pathetic; to say the least. There is a lot of politics that goes in behind the selection of players. I feel due to the amount of money involved and the company's reputation of those who sponsor them being at stake they tend to keep those players in the team. That is the reason you see a complete lack of application by the batsmen and a totally senseless batting performance. They do not realise that they have been chosen out of a lot of 1 billion people and if they do not play even 1 good innings there are about 50 odd players ready to take their place and would give their heart and soul to play for the nation. It just seems like within a year of them being in the team they start forgetting that it's their priviledge to play for the country, they are not doing us a favour. This is the attitude that we fans hate and that is the reason we get angry, and our outrage is totally justified. They have no business to tell us that we are overreacting, I would take it if it comes from the mouth of say a Dravid or Bhajji or Kumble who I know are trying their level best and giving it their all, but not from players like Kaif, Raina, Agarkar or Sehwag, who seem to be not affected by the team's poor performance and are more interested in going for safari rides !!!!!
If this is the way it will go on then I feel we might need the services of Mr. Vengsarkar and Gavaskar very soon, who are already there in Africa, probably waiting for a test recall !!!!!!
Saturday, December 16, 2006
The Xavier’s Experience
What I began with and where have reached now. It all started as a journey towards finding a meaning for my life. Engineering had changed my life completely, definitely for the worse. I was doing something I had no clue about and something I would never pursue later in life. God knows why then did I choose it in the beginning. Anyway all said and done life had taken a complete u-turn. I had being it all right from square one.
Three years of engineering all gone down the drain? Well, not quite. Had learnt from my mistakes, my decisions, my interests, all these had to be taken care of now and I would be wholly and solely responsible for my life from here onwards. There is no point in regretting later and blaming someone else for ruing my life.
This has become quite preachy and sad, quite unlike me, am sure my friends would vouch for this. Ok so here I was doing BMM, luckily got through to Xavier’s, my dream destination. May be I was supposed to come here sometime in my life hence when I failed to do so for my JC was expectedly disappointed and always thought that it would be my biggest loss. Luckily enough not my loss.
Luck was certainly in my favour because that year only the university decided to increase the seats for BMM to 20 per college and I got in only because of that, there’s more, it only happened that year, never before in its history nor anytime later were more than 60 students allowed to join BMM. I had joined this course thinking that it definitely is simpler than Engg and atleast I would be able to get an all clear here! I used to make fun of my sister who did the same course by calling is Bachelor of Moj Masti. That’s what it seemed to be in the beginning, what with all simple class projects and subjects like communications skills where you get a comprehension in your exam, now frankly tell me on what basis would you call that tough !!!!
And trust me after doing engineering you will find most stuff very simple, atleast it would seem simple. Soon years went by, semesters came and turned the tide. Soon I was in my second year and would be choosing my major next year. Reality struck me !!!!
I had to start racking my brains, put more thought in my projects and may be listen to a few smart people around and get some counseling, all in vain!
Finally decided to go with Advertising. So how did Xavier’s change me? Well I used to call myself “half an engineer and half a media man” in the second year. Now I refrain myself from using the word engineer even for the slightest of things. It gives me nightmares. I still wonder how I managed to scrape through 4-5 exams that I managed to pass. Now getting back to Xavier’s, firstly I got a first class in my very first semester. I can still recall the day I gave my first exam of semester 1 when my hands were shivering writing the exam. My confidence level was at its lowest, had all answers in my mind but my pen refused to budge. I somehow managed to write the answers and was so tensed as if I was giving some IIT entrance exam. Xavier’s gave me that confidence, that belief, the self belief was back, I had found people with similar interests and vastly talented, I still remember seeing the Xavier’s culture made me feel nice to be part of this prestigious college. It definitely has that something extra. People laying their guitars, groups of people singing in one corner, surrounded by all creative people gave me that good feeling, something I had never experienced before. It gave me international exposure.
I happened to be part of the group chosen by SIFE to go for the 3 month Internship in the USA. That was a life changing experience. It instilled great confidence in me.
Three years of engineering all gone down the drain? Well, not quite. Had learnt from my mistakes, my decisions, my interests, all these had to be taken care of now and I would be wholly and solely responsible for my life from here onwards. There is no point in regretting later and blaming someone else for ruing my life.
This has become quite preachy and sad, quite unlike me, am sure my friends would vouch for this. Ok so here I was doing BMM, luckily got through to Xavier’s, my dream destination. May be I was supposed to come here sometime in my life hence when I failed to do so for my JC was expectedly disappointed and always thought that it would be my biggest loss. Luckily enough not my loss.
Luck was certainly in my favour because that year only the university decided to increase the seats for BMM to 20 per college and I got in only because of that, there’s more, it only happened that year, never before in its history nor anytime later were more than 60 students allowed to join BMM. I had joined this course thinking that it definitely is simpler than Engg and atleast I would be able to get an all clear here! I used to make fun of my sister who did the same course by calling is Bachelor of Moj Masti. That’s what it seemed to be in the beginning, what with all simple class projects and subjects like communications skills where you get a comprehension in your exam, now frankly tell me on what basis would you call that tough !!!!
And trust me after doing engineering you will find most stuff very simple, atleast it would seem simple. Soon years went by, semesters came and turned the tide. Soon I was in my second year and would be choosing my major next year. Reality struck me !!!!
I had to start racking my brains, put more thought in my projects and may be listen to a few smart people around and get some counseling, all in vain!
Finally decided to go with Advertising. So how did Xavier’s change me? Well I used to call myself “half an engineer and half a media man” in the second year. Now I refrain myself from using the word engineer even for the slightest of things. It gives me nightmares. I still wonder how I managed to scrape through 4-5 exams that I managed to pass. Now getting back to Xavier’s, firstly I got a first class in my very first semester. I can still recall the day I gave my first exam of semester 1 when my hands were shivering writing the exam. My confidence level was at its lowest, had all answers in my mind but my pen refused to budge. I somehow managed to write the answers and was so tensed as if I was giving some IIT entrance exam. Xavier’s gave me that confidence, that belief, the self belief was back, I had found people with similar interests and vastly talented, I still remember seeing the Xavier’s culture made me feel nice to be part of this prestigious college. It definitely has that something extra. People laying their guitars, groups of people singing in one corner, surrounded by all creative people gave me that good feeling, something I had never experienced before. It gave me international exposure.
I happened to be part of the group chosen by SIFE to go for the 3 month Internship in the USA. That was a life changing experience. It instilled great confidence in me.
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