Monday, November 13, 2006

Never Before

Never before have I done this,
Never before have I felt like this;
This one girl has shaken me over,
She hit my ego and hurt my pride;
I thought we were in for a big fight,
You mockingly kicked me and I got it hard,
I thought it was early..uhmm just a tard;
You asked for my thoughts and here I am penning them for you,
Never before have I done this..believe me its true;
What would I write I thought,
but the pen moved and I began to jot;
At first you seemed like an innocent,sweet, good looking girl,
But later did I find that you are not just that but a real pearl;
In you I found a friend of mine,
Longing for whom I was sometime;
I spoke, you heard, I spoke , you heard,
May be that's what you preferred;
Cherish every moment spent with you,
feels like the most well spent moment;
Such is your importance in my life,
not even sure you realize;
Don't even know what I feel for you,
Crush..Imfatuation..uhmm definitely something more;
So much of my feelings, thoughts, enough didn't we see?
Now let's hear what's your part of this story ?

Ending it this way

Can't imagine that things between us ended in such a way. She was the love of my life, I had dreamt of living my whole life with her and now its all over. All the lovely memories have gone down the drain. Never ever thought that it would be so bad. When it started the whole world seemed like a great place, almost heaven. things we shared, the way she cared, our thoughts, our feelings, the mutual love and respect, I thought she was my ideal woman. The one who would be my partner for life, one who would be my strength, one who gave my life a new direction a new meaning, she was someone for whom i was ready to sacrifice everything, I was ready to lead, accept my responsibilties, was looking forward to living with her sharing life's experiences.
Will I miss her ? Surely I will, I am doing so now. Life seems empty without her, there is no motivation, no reason to live and succeed in life. for whom should i achieve all this, wanted to give her the best life possible, wanted her to be proud of me, wanted to show her the world through my eyes, wanted her to be part of my own small world.
All dreams shattered, I am living a loner's life. Life is moving at a slow pace, things have lost their colour, friends don't cheer me up now. The smile on my face is fake, the feeling of happiness has wandered somewhere.
Felt betrayed at one point, feel lost now. Was she really my ideal girl, was it meant to be like this way ? Will she come back to me ? Will I ever be able to love someone again, will i do justice to somebody's love for me ? Will I be loyal to someone, Will I be able to trust anyone ?
A lot of questions unanswered by me, a lot of questions unanswered by her !!

Family comes first, Love does not come at all !!!!!!!!!!!