What is it about you that I miss so much?
What keeps me thinking of you so much?
Last night when I checked my mail,
I searched for one of your old mails,
Read it even though I knew it would hurt,
I think I should delete them and then think may be not,
I sent you a mail to an id you don't check,
And am still hoping you reply within a few days,
I don't know what I am doing,
This is certainly not helping as I keep denying,
I wish to move on and I thought I have,
But everytime this loneliness pushes me back a few years,
I sit and look at those lovely days,
When we sat, talked and you were all ears,
To every little thing I said,
Every little moment was cherished,
God! I have had enough, now just make this stop,
And let me go to where I belong.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Time to hit me
Don't know why I chose this title
I guess am just lazy and felt like it
To choose a topic that forces me to act
Do something and get rid of this laze
How I do it even I have no clue,
But sometimes shit comes out and its all new,
I make it a point to write a rhyme,
And force it on every line,
A two-liner or a four,
I will write until I get bored,
This is good for a change,
My poetry is not all about the sane,
Sometimes corny, sometimes emotional,
I try hard and make it proportional,
Knowing the language well helps,
Stopping here to ask what else?
Nothing more to write, nothing else to share,
I should have ended before as I said,
But then again, you know me well,
Sometimes I really, really don't care!
I guess am just lazy and felt like it
To choose a topic that forces me to act
Do something and get rid of this laze
How I do it even I have no clue,
But sometimes shit comes out and its all new,
I make it a point to write a rhyme,
And force it on every line,
A two-liner or a four,
I will write until I get bored,
This is good for a change,
My poetry is not all about the sane,
Sometimes corny, sometimes emotional,
I try hard and make it proportional,
Knowing the language well helps,
Stopping here to ask what else?
Nothing more to write, nothing else to share,
I should have ended before as I said,
But then again, you know me well,
Sometimes I really, really don't care!
End of Part 1
Add Semester 2 to continue....
Next update: January 24, 2011.
Aah...do not go away, am going to tell you about the highlights of the first semester. Kinda like a recap, eh!
Yeah. So the first part of my PG degree is done and I do not even know where it all went. The semester passed like a breeze. It came, it ruffled a few things and it left.
A different experience altogether I must admit. Looking back now I do realize how things have changed and how they have brought in a change in me. When I first came in here on the 11th of September 2010, I almost like a child left free. I would want to do things just out of curiosity. I would not sleep on time, I ate whatever I felt like, whenever I felt like, bought a lot of things I usually would not. It gave me the kind of freedom I always wanted but never knew I wanted.
I guess most of us go through this phase, some, albeit do it a lot earlier. But as they say, it's never too late.
Well, in my case I have always done things a little later than I should have. So this does not come as a complete surprise. ;)
From my first day when I went to the nearby store to pick up a converter and then buying things I probably would not use until say a few months later, to now having a budget and planning my shopping and even sourcing stuff from only particular shops. I have learnt a lot of things.
I love the fact that during my first week when I did not even know that I was eating half-baked pasta to now almost perfecting it to the T. From not going beyond the simple egg omelette to now having made Gajar ka Halwa. From living a dependent life to living almost on my own. I am really happy and proud of myself and would love to continue this trend.
Now that I have lived the life I always wanted to, its time when I take control of my life. Well begun is half done indeed but you must remember that the other half is still to go.
I need to work hard and keep working to make sure this year turns out to be one of my best so far and I only go from strength to strength.
I did not expect this but it has happened. I do not long for my friends as much, I am much more in control of myself and my feelings. I have made some new friends, who I am ready to trust and forge great bonds with. Right now, they might not be at the same level as my other friends but I have started seeing them in a different light.
From mere colleagues from class, to friends I would call up when times are rough. From flatmates to real buddies. From people I just want to know so that I have some 'firang' friends to now I need them and miss them when they are not around.
These three months have changed a lot of things.
It is vacation time here in Leeds, but back in India it is prime time. People are at their busiest, socializing, attending weddings, making plans for the new year, some new year resolutions. And here, I am trying to wind up my year. Friends have gone to meet family, people are getting serious about their studies and exams. It's funny how things are different on this side of the Indian Ocean.
Right then, it's time for me to get back to work. To promise myself to land a good job here, to study hard and get a distinction, to now make full use of my life and the licence I have to live the life I always wanted to.
This blog is more for me than for the readers. It is for me to remind myself of what I have come here to accomplish.
Thanks guys,
love,
Raging Optimist
Next update: January 24, 2011.
Aah...do not go away, am going to tell you about the highlights of the first semester. Kinda like a recap, eh!
Yeah. So the first part of my PG degree is done and I do not even know where it all went. The semester passed like a breeze. It came, it ruffled a few things and it left.
A different experience altogether I must admit. Looking back now I do realize how things have changed and how they have brought in a change in me. When I first came in here on the 11th of September 2010, I almost like a child left free. I would want to do things just out of curiosity. I would not sleep on time, I ate whatever I felt like, whenever I felt like, bought a lot of things I usually would not. It gave me the kind of freedom I always wanted but never knew I wanted.
I guess most of us go through this phase, some, albeit do it a lot earlier. But as they say, it's never too late.
Well, in my case I have always done things a little later than I should have. So this does not come as a complete surprise. ;)
From my first day when I went to the nearby store to pick up a converter and then buying things I probably would not use until say a few months later, to now having a budget and planning my shopping and even sourcing stuff from only particular shops. I have learnt a lot of things.
I love the fact that during my first week when I did not even know that I was eating half-baked pasta to now almost perfecting it to the T. From not going beyond the simple egg omelette to now having made Gajar ka Halwa. From living a dependent life to living almost on my own. I am really happy and proud of myself and would love to continue this trend.
Now that I have lived the life I always wanted to, its time when I take control of my life. Well begun is half done indeed but you must remember that the other half is still to go.
I need to work hard and keep working to make sure this year turns out to be one of my best so far and I only go from strength to strength.
I did not expect this but it has happened. I do not long for my friends as much, I am much more in control of myself and my feelings. I have made some new friends, who I am ready to trust and forge great bonds with. Right now, they might not be at the same level as my other friends but I have started seeing them in a different light.
From mere colleagues from class, to friends I would call up when times are rough. From flatmates to real buddies. From people I just want to know so that I have some 'firang' friends to now I need them and miss them when they are not around.
These three months have changed a lot of things.
It is vacation time here in Leeds, but back in India it is prime time. People are at their busiest, socializing, attending weddings, making plans for the new year, some new year resolutions. And here, I am trying to wind up my year. Friends have gone to meet family, people are getting serious about their studies and exams. It's funny how things are different on this side of the Indian Ocean.
Right then, it's time for me to get back to work. To promise myself to land a good job here, to study hard and get a distinction, to now make full use of my life and the licence I have to live the life I always wanted to.
This blog is more for me than for the readers. It is for me to remind myself of what I have come here to accomplish.
Thanks guys,
love,
Raging Optimist
Sunday, November 07, 2010
Zindagi pechida hai
Meri hi zindagi hai lekin is mein main kam hoon,
Mujh mein, tum ho kar bhi tum nahin ho,
Tujh mein main nahin ho kar bhi main har jagah hoon,
Tum chahe maano ya na maano isse,
Lekin tumhari yaad mein aaj bhi main hoon,
Yakeen nahin hota agar, toh kisi gair se pooch lo,
Us mein bhi agar main na nazar aaya, toh phir kehna,
Hum dono ki chahat ek thi magar thikane alag,
Baat wohi thi magar bahane alag,
Main tumse kaafi kuch keh gaya,
Magar sunne mein hi kami reh gayi,
Tum kehti rahi har dum jo tumne aakhir tak kaha,
Magar main wohi sun raha tha jo mujhe tha manzoor,
Aaj jab mudkar peeche dekha maine,
Toh jaana ki humne rahein hi alag chuni thi,
Main aaj bhi tumhe sun sakta hoon,
Isliye nahin ki tum paas ho,
Isliye kyunki main apna ek hissa tumhare paas chod aaya hoon...
Mujh mein, tum ho kar bhi tum nahin ho,
Tujh mein main nahin ho kar bhi main har jagah hoon,
Tum chahe maano ya na maano isse,
Lekin tumhari yaad mein aaj bhi main hoon,
Yakeen nahin hota agar, toh kisi gair se pooch lo,
Us mein bhi agar main na nazar aaya, toh phir kehna,
Hum dono ki chahat ek thi magar thikane alag,
Baat wohi thi magar bahane alag,
Main tumse kaafi kuch keh gaya,
Magar sunne mein hi kami reh gayi,
Tum kehti rahi har dum jo tumne aakhir tak kaha,
Magar main wohi sun raha tha jo mujhe tha manzoor,
Aaj jab mudkar peeche dekha maine,
Toh jaana ki humne rahein hi alag chuni thi,
Main aaj bhi tumhe sun sakta hoon,
Isliye nahin ki tum paas ho,
Isliye kyunki main apna ek hissa tumhare paas chod aaya hoon...
Yeh meri zindagi hai?
Meri zindagi mein main kahan hoon?
Itna sama chuki ho mere andar tum,
Ki ab mujhmein bhi sirf tum ho,
Khud mein hi dhoondhta hoon tumhe,
Phir bhi kahin na milti tum ho,
Baat karne ki koshish jab ki maine,
Tum mujhe mein hi chip gayi kahin,
Maine bahut pukaara lekin,
Ek awaaz na suni tumne,
Aaj bhi dastak deta hoon main apne dil pe,
Is umeed mein ki shayad tum jawab dogi,
Kae saal beet gaye, yeh aadat gayi nahin ab tak,
Jawab toh nahin aaya magar, iss aadat ne ek nishaan chod diya dil par,
Ab main bhool chuka hoon tumhe lekin,
Dil pe reh gaya jo nishaan uska kya karun,
Jab jaana hi tha tumhe zindagi se meri,
Toh kambakht dil ko bhi saath le jaati,
Na nishaan ki takleef hoti, na jeene ki...
Itna sama chuki ho mere andar tum,
Ki ab mujhmein bhi sirf tum ho,
Khud mein hi dhoondhta hoon tumhe,
Phir bhi kahin na milti tum ho,
Baat karne ki koshish jab ki maine,
Tum mujhe mein hi chip gayi kahin,
Maine bahut pukaara lekin,
Ek awaaz na suni tumne,
Aaj bhi dastak deta hoon main apne dil pe,
Is umeed mein ki shayad tum jawab dogi,
Kae saal beet gaye, yeh aadat gayi nahin ab tak,
Jawab toh nahin aaya magar, iss aadat ne ek nishaan chod diya dil par,
Ab main bhool chuka hoon tumhe lekin,
Dil pe reh gaya jo nishaan uska kya karun,
Jab jaana hi tha tumhe zindagi se meri,
Toh kambakht dil ko bhi saath le jaati,
Na nishaan ki takleef hoti, na jeene ki...
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
The fake weather man!
Leeds has been cold for a few days and Tuesday was no different. Coming back from a friend's house after a session of pan cakes, wine and some wolf, the 5 minute walk from Montague Burton to Leodis seemed like eternity. The chilly weather did not help and for the first time in my life I felt jeans was not thick enough!
It seemed as if somehow the cold breeze was seeping in through my pants. Thankfully I wasn't wearing one of my 'hole' wala jeans. To the surprise of my dear friends and family I did not carry any of 'those' with me.
So anyway, back to what I was talking about, the weather. So it was quite cold on Tuesday night and I was expecting today to be as cold. But to my surprise when I woke up today I felt colder than what I usually do so I decided to check the temperature on the computer. To my horror it read 0 degree!! I was flummoxed and my first reaction was to look outside the window to check for snow! Yeah, come on now, when you come from Mumbai or India for that matter and realize it is 0 degree you will hope there is snow. But surprise, surprise! There was sunshine! The sun was beating down and there was no hint of snow anywhere.
A tad disappointed I was a bit relieved as well. Was thinking the time to wear inners and gloves hasn't come as yet, but the weather man almost had me there. Yet, taking all precautions I decided to wear four layers and a scarf to keep me warm. As it happened, when I stepped out of the building it did not seem as chilly.
My phone too was saying it was 1 degree so I really did not know how what to say. And before you jump and say that may be my three layers had a say in this? No, it wasn't that either. IT JUST WASN'T AS COLD!
Hut saala, aise hi expectation high kiya!! :P
It seemed as if somehow the cold breeze was seeping in through my pants. Thankfully I wasn't wearing one of my 'hole' wala jeans. To the surprise of my dear friends and family I did not carry any of 'those' with me.
So anyway, back to what I was talking about, the weather. So it was quite cold on Tuesday night and I was expecting today to be as cold. But to my surprise when I woke up today I felt colder than what I usually do so I decided to check the temperature on the computer. To my horror it read 0 degree!! I was flummoxed and my first reaction was to look outside the window to check for snow! Yeah, come on now, when you come from Mumbai or India for that matter and realize it is 0 degree you will hope there is snow. But surprise, surprise! There was sunshine! The sun was beating down and there was no hint of snow anywhere.
A tad disappointed I was a bit relieved as well. Was thinking the time to wear inners and gloves hasn't come as yet, but the weather man almost had me there. Yet, taking all precautions I decided to wear four layers and a scarf to keep me warm. As it happened, when I stepped out of the building it did not seem as chilly.
My phone too was saying it was 1 degree so I really did not know how what to say. And before you jump and say that may be my three layers had a say in this? No, it wasn't that either. IT JUST WASN'T AS COLD!
Hut saala, aise hi expectation high kiya!! :P
Sunday, October 17, 2010
When life gives you a lesson, pay attention!
I do not know what I was thinking when I decided to take up this course here in the University of Leeds.
I was all very happy about having to live all on my own, cooking my own food and leading my life the way I always wanted to. Little did I know that life had more challenges than I thought it did!
Let's begin with the first few days and my first few visits to the supermarket. After spending my first few hours in my room looking at my desk, cupboard and bathroom I decided to open my suitcase and set stuff. I began with promptly tagging my love letter from my dear friend Megha. Which made me realise I needed some pins to put stuff on the soft-board. I realized that the laptop will soon be dying if I did not manage to get its converter. This led me to my first visit to the closest supermarket called Londis. Londis near Leodis, is that a coincidence? I don't know and I don't care!
So, thus began my search and should I say my poor foresightedness. As I entered the shop I realised it had a lot of stuff that I will need to survive the next few days, so I decide I shall indulge in a little bit of grocery shopping. I picked up bread, milk, juice bottle, pins, garbage bags, some sauce, etc.
As always happens, you always tend to buy the thing you need most...never! I forgot to buy the converter I was looking for and instead bought a lot of stuff I could have done without. Well, to be honest, atleast could have done without it for a few hours!
Which brings me to my most favoured shopping destination - Morrisons. The supermarket which is every students' dream and home! I seriously feel that once all of us leave Leeds we will have to de-morrisonise ourselves in order to live anywhere else in this world!
Anyway, coming back to my shopping spree. My next destination was Morrisons as I declared earlier. I was told to buy some duvet and pillows by our taxi guy and my friend Mej. So I jumped right away when I saw some great deals on bedding, etc. I decided to throw that on my trolley. Next came, actually let's skip ahead because the list of things that I saw and I bought will cross the word limit of any blog ever seen or written in the history of a student life. Ok, am exaggerating but trust me you do not want to hear it, rather read it.
So after I am done with the billing I realize I have a little over 4 bags to carry back, I am tired as hell after a long day, i have not eaten lunch and yeah, saving the best for the last, I have to climb uphill for about 20 mins to reach my destination - Leodis!!
So chindi as I have always been and I take pride in that, I decided to walk. Don't worry, I reached my place in one piece. Albeit, with 7 breaks and thank god for the bottles of mineral water that I bought, which by the way I finished before I could reach home, I survived the drain and also caught the fancy of an Indian couple who smiled seeing me and commented after seeing the big bags and the sweat on my brow when the weather in the city was making others wear three layers, "Indian ho? College student, aaah!! Nice, nice! See you!"
So the biggest lesson that I have learnt since coming to Leeds, never go to Morrisons to buy stuff that you cannot carry back. Two, always take friends along when you go there, so you can always share a cab, share the bag and of course, put your stuff in their bag and take it only when you reach home! ;)
As someone once smartly said, always share your knowledge, it will only multiply, not decrease. So I would Smart Alec'ly tell any random stranger I would meet in my student accommodation or in random international meets to never go to Morrisons alone and definitely not buy more than two bags. Of course, most of the times I would be laughed at, yet I would not buckle down and keep reiterating the fact.
So, coming to why I began writing this blog. Well, one incident that just occurred a few minutes back with me prompted me to write down a few others that happened just to have a good build up and for you to have some sympathy towards me as a first timer.
It all began with me having to wear an old pair of socks today morning for my squash appointment. I could have just finished it at 'in the morning' but I added the squash part to show-off! I was wondering how come I was running out of socks to wear since I assumed I had enough to last me more than three weeks. Little did I know that I had already used up around 9 pairs and if I did not clean them urgently I would have to either buy new pairs or just wear old ones. Which is fine by me, but over the years I have kind of started to feel for the opposite gender and their nasal powers and hence would not dare to do the latter.
So, I decided to wash them along with a few underwear and thus I put them all on the floor in the shower room and switched the shower on. I also put some Ariel washing powder so that it could lather up. I was hoping that the granules would mix with the water and I could just soak them up for a bit and hang them all around the room and wait for them to dry. Which is where in-experience comes in, I did not know that the granules would not mix properly unless and until I put them all in a bucket of water and clothes. So now I have a bathroom with 9 pairs of socks, 5 undies, 3 boxers all half wet, half lathered and no place to have bath!
This is the end of this blog, I can only update you about the situation once I find a solution for it or if one of my followers or readers is kind enough to give me a tip!!!
Thanks for reading, I thoroughly enjoyed writing this piece and hope to write some more interesting ones soon!
Adios.
I was all very happy about having to live all on my own, cooking my own food and leading my life the way I always wanted to. Little did I know that life had more challenges than I thought it did!
Let's begin with the first few days and my first few visits to the supermarket. After spending my first few hours in my room looking at my desk, cupboard and bathroom I decided to open my suitcase and set stuff. I began with promptly tagging my love letter from my dear friend Megha. Which made me realise I needed some pins to put stuff on the soft-board. I realized that the laptop will soon be dying if I did not manage to get its converter. This led me to my first visit to the closest supermarket called Londis. Londis near Leodis, is that a coincidence? I don't know and I don't care!
So, thus began my search and should I say my poor foresightedness. As I entered the shop I realised it had a lot of stuff that I will need to survive the next few days, so I decide I shall indulge in a little bit of grocery shopping. I picked up bread, milk, juice bottle, pins, garbage bags, some sauce, etc.
As always happens, you always tend to buy the thing you need most...never! I forgot to buy the converter I was looking for and instead bought a lot of stuff I could have done without. Well, to be honest, atleast could have done without it for a few hours!
Which brings me to my most favoured shopping destination - Morrisons. The supermarket which is every students' dream and home! I seriously feel that once all of us leave Leeds we will have to de-morrisonise ourselves in order to live anywhere else in this world!
Anyway, coming back to my shopping spree. My next destination was Morrisons as I declared earlier. I was told to buy some duvet and pillows by our taxi guy and my friend Mej. So I jumped right away when I saw some great deals on bedding, etc. I decided to throw that on my trolley. Next came, actually let's skip ahead because the list of things that I saw and I bought will cross the word limit of any blog ever seen or written in the history of a student life. Ok, am exaggerating but trust me you do not want to hear it, rather read it.
So after I am done with the billing I realize I have a little over 4 bags to carry back, I am tired as hell after a long day, i have not eaten lunch and yeah, saving the best for the last, I have to climb uphill for about 20 mins to reach my destination - Leodis!!
So chindi as I have always been and I take pride in that, I decided to walk. Don't worry, I reached my place in one piece. Albeit, with 7 breaks and thank god for the bottles of mineral water that I bought, which by the way I finished before I could reach home, I survived the drain and also caught the fancy of an Indian couple who smiled seeing me and commented after seeing the big bags and the sweat on my brow when the weather in the city was making others wear three layers, "Indian ho? College student, aaah!! Nice, nice! See you!"
So the biggest lesson that I have learnt since coming to Leeds, never go to Morrisons to buy stuff that you cannot carry back. Two, always take friends along when you go there, so you can always share a cab, share the bag and of course, put your stuff in their bag and take it only when you reach home! ;)
As someone once smartly said, always share your knowledge, it will only multiply, not decrease. So I would Smart Alec'ly tell any random stranger I would meet in my student accommodation or in random international meets to never go to Morrisons alone and definitely not buy more than two bags. Of course, most of the times I would be laughed at, yet I would not buckle down and keep reiterating the fact.
So, coming to why I began writing this blog. Well, one incident that just occurred a few minutes back with me prompted me to write down a few others that happened just to have a good build up and for you to have some sympathy towards me as a first timer.
It all began with me having to wear an old pair of socks today morning for my squash appointment. I could have just finished it at 'in the morning' but I added the squash part to show-off! I was wondering how come I was running out of socks to wear since I assumed I had enough to last me more than three weeks. Little did I know that I had already used up around 9 pairs and if I did not clean them urgently I would have to either buy new pairs or just wear old ones. Which is fine by me, but over the years I have kind of started to feel for the opposite gender and their nasal powers and hence would not dare to do the latter.
So, I decided to wash them along with a few underwear and thus I put them all on the floor in the shower room and switched the shower on. I also put some Ariel washing powder so that it could lather up. I was hoping that the granules would mix with the water and I could just soak them up for a bit and hang them all around the room and wait for them to dry. Which is where in-experience comes in, I did not know that the granules would not mix properly unless and until I put them all in a bucket of water and clothes. So now I have a bathroom with 9 pairs of socks, 5 undies, 3 boxers all half wet, half lathered and no place to have bath!
This is the end of this blog, I can only update you about the situation once I find a solution for it or if one of my followers or readers is kind enough to give me a tip!!!
Thanks for reading, I thoroughly enjoyed writing this piece and hope to write some more interesting ones soon!
Adios.
Friday, October 15, 2010
I fall in love too easily...
Funny but true,
I can fall in love with you,
I don't even have to try,
I will start thinking before you ask why,
My friends will not be surprised,
When I tell them I have found someone nice,
The same story will repeat itself,
I will like her and she will abandon me,
Find someone else and give that a try,
Come back to me when she needs a shoulder to cry,
I was, I am and will always be,
The nice guy that you want to see,
To help you forget him and cheer you up,
And rise with a smile when you wake-up,
But am tired now of being him,
Just want to live up again,
Can't help but think of love,
I know I will just never give up!
I can fall in love with you,
I don't even have to try,
I will start thinking before you ask why,
My friends will not be surprised,
When I tell them I have found someone nice,
The same story will repeat itself,
I will like her and she will abandon me,
Find someone else and give that a try,
Come back to me when she needs a shoulder to cry,
I was, I am and will always be,
The nice guy that you want to see,
To help you forget him and cheer you up,
And rise with a smile when you wake-up,
But am tired now of being him,
Just want to live up again,
Can't help but think of love,
I know I will just never give up!
Thoughts
You are looking for an apple and I am an orange.
When you love someone, do not let them go.
Can someone be as rude as she was?
Tere jaane se, main adhura reh gaya! - This sums up the feeling I have right now.
When you love someone, do not let them go.
Can someone be as rude as she was?
Tere jaane se, main adhura reh gaya! - This sums up the feeling I have right now.
Living it, loving it!
Don't know where to begin this one from. To think of it, I did not ever imagine I would be doing this. Staying abroad, doing my masters in a foreign country. Life...is in my control.
This is something I always wanted but never knew. Something I learnt thanks to my biggest lesson in life, engineering! Yes, its true, my biggest failure in life has been the biggest lesson for me. It let me find who I really was, it let me dare to take a step back to take two steps ahead. It allowed me to take decisions for myself. It was then that I realized that I wanted to live life my way. When I could make my decision and be happy or sad about it. Be able to blame myself if I had to for anything that was to happen from there on. And I am loving it, living it.
From that time to now, things have changed, but for the better. Life has improved at every stage and it has only given me reasons to smile. I like it this way.
Now I am controlling my life more than I ever have. Earlier I would just do what I would like to but yet be dependent in a way. Now, not anymore. I am liking the part where I wake myself up, I feed myself, I clean up the place and I dirty it. I have to look for everything that I have and everything that I do not. I have to go out and get things what I do not have but want. It has never been better.
Yes, I do miss a few things. Who am I lying to, I miss a lot of things, but then this is something I am willing to give up anything for. I have my freedom!
Have been thinking for a while that I would write about my observations and picks from Leeds. I thought that would be my first blog piece once I reach here. But then again am happy that I have the ability to surprise myself.
Am going to make double use of this blog. I have already written what I wanted to so now am going to use the same blog to talk about the things that I find worth writing about.
First and foremost, getting used to Toilet Paper. It's different, it's weird and at times it seems unclean but that is how it is going to be. Sorry, gross start!
I do not like as many options as you have here. Like choosing potatoes - you have baking potato, baby potato, new potato, large potato and god knows what all!
Electric plates - it took me three weeks to realize the vegetables that I was cooking were undercooked because the electric plates take much longer than what LPG would.
Duvets - I hate them. They are the worst things that could happen to a college student. They are
way too comfortable to allow someone to get out of them. They need to be discontinued with immediate effect.
Mobile phones - not just any of them. There are it seems just two brands in the world now - its either BlackBerry or Apple iPhone. People want it, people have it and people crave it. These are the only three types of people that I see around me now and I am fed-up of them. I hate them, I detest them.
Right now I cannot think of anymore, but I swear when I have a good big list I am going to come back and list them down to remind myself of them.
This is something I always wanted but never knew. Something I learnt thanks to my biggest lesson in life, engineering! Yes, its true, my biggest failure in life has been the biggest lesson for me. It let me find who I really was, it let me dare to take a step back to take two steps ahead. It allowed me to take decisions for myself. It was then that I realized that I wanted to live life my way. When I could make my decision and be happy or sad about it. Be able to blame myself if I had to for anything that was to happen from there on. And I am loving it, living it.
From that time to now, things have changed, but for the better. Life has improved at every stage and it has only given me reasons to smile. I like it this way.
Now I am controlling my life more than I ever have. Earlier I would just do what I would like to but yet be dependent in a way. Now, not anymore. I am liking the part where I wake myself up, I feed myself, I clean up the place and I dirty it. I have to look for everything that I have and everything that I do not. I have to go out and get things what I do not have but want. It has never been better.
Yes, I do miss a few things. Who am I lying to, I miss a lot of things, but then this is something I am willing to give up anything for. I have my freedom!
Have been thinking for a while that I would write about my observations and picks from Leeds. I thought that would be my first blog piece once I reach here. But then again am happy that I have the ability to surprise myself.
Am going to make double use of this blog. I have already written what I wanted to so now am going to use the same blog to talk about the things that I find worth writing about.
First and foremost, getting used to Toilet Paper. It's different, it's weird and at times it seems unclean but that is how it is going to be. Sorry, gross start!
I do not like as many options as you have here. Like choosing potatoes - you have baking potato, baby potato, new potato, large potato and god knows what all!
Electric plates - it took me three weeks to realize the vegetables that I was cooking were undercooked because the electric plates take much longer than what LPG would.
Duvets - I hate them. They are the worst things that could happen to a college student. They are
way too comfortable to allow someone to get out of them. They need to be discontinued with immediate effect.
Mobile phones - not just any of them. There are it seems just two brands in the world now - its either BlackBerry or Apple iPhone. People want it, people have it and people crave it. These are the only three types of people that I see around me now and I am fed-up of them. I hate them, I detest them.
Right now I cannot think of anymore, but I swear when I have a good big list I am going to come back and list them down to remind myself of them.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Technology, I hate you!
All things have their ups and their downs, you like them for a reason and you hate them for another.
Technology too has improved our lives in a great way but today I just want to talk about the bad things that it has done.
Gone are the days when we had one landline, one number. Everyone had to call you from 'their' landline to your landline to speak to anyone in the family. Infact the word landline came only after we started having a mobile phone. Now everyone has it, but it restricts us. We speak to only that person whom we have called, others remain out of the conversation. Gone are the days when to speak with a kid, you had to first speak with the elders, then the middle one and then the youngest. That struggle, that patience, is no more.
Gone are the days when to wish someone on their birthday you would either call at midnight and wake up the entire house or wait till the next morning and wait in line.
Now you can set an alarm on your phone, you can pre-load a card on a website and it will be delivered, you can send a simple cheap SMS. The personal touch has gone, the little effort that you had to make to call up a person has been snatched away by Technology.
Gone are the days when with each Rakhi, sisters would send a small letter, a note to say hi and ask about your health. Thanks to the electronic age, we send e-rakhis. Some sisters still send physical rakhis but the letter has taken a backseat.
Who wants to take the pain to jot down a few lines. They think, didn't we just speak to him last night, so what's the point of a letter. Sometimes, you express more in a letter than you ever would in person or on phone. Try it.
Facebook, another invention from the labs of a certain guy called 'Technology'. People leave a scrap on your wall, they peek at your albums, they keep tabs on your status messages and changing relationship statuses. All in the name of 'socializing'. The gossip mongers are beggars now, they hate this subtle stalking websites. They allow you to find about people with the click of a button, there is no strategies involved anymore, there are no rumours being spread, the aunties of the worlds are cursing Facebook, they've ruined their chai-time talks.
Everyone knows everything about everyone. It's become too easy now.
The fun is gone and I don't like it!
Technology too has improved our lives in a great way but today I just want to talk about the bad things that it has done.
Gone are the days when we had one landline, one number. Everyone had to call you from 'their' landline to your landline to speak to anyone in the family. Infact the word landline came only after we started having a mobile phone. Now everyone has it, but it restricts us. We speak to only that person whom we have called, others remain out of the conversation. Gone are the days when to speak with a kid, you had to first speak with the elders, then the middle one and then the youngest. That struggle, that patience, is no more.
Gone are the days when to wish someone on their birthday you would either call at midnight and wake up the entire house or wait till the next morning and wait in line.
Now you can set an alarm on your phone, you can pre-load a card on a website and it will be delivered, you can send a simple cheap SMS. The personal touch has gone, the little effort that you had to make to call up a person has been snatched away by Technology.
Gone are the days when with each Rakhi, sisters would send a small letter, a note to say hi and ask about your health. Thanks to the electronic age, we send e-rakhis. Some sisters still send physical rakhis but the letter has taken a backseat.
Who wants to take the pain to jot down a few lines. They think, didn't we just speak to him last night, so what's the point of a letter. Sometimes, you express more in a letter than you ever would in person or on phone. Try it.
Facebook, another invention from the labs of a certain guy called 'Technology'. People leave a scrap on your wall, they peek at your albums, they keep tabs on your status messages and changing relationship statuses. All in the name of 'socializing'. The gossip mongers are beggars now, they hate this subtle stalking websites. They allow you to find about people with the click of a button, there is no strategies involved anymore, there are no rumours being spread, the aunties of the worlds are cursing Facebook, they've ruined their chai-time talks.
Everyone knows everything about everyone. It's become too easy now.
The fun is gone and I don't like it!
Sunday, August 01, 2010
The Rains
Love them, hate them, you can't ignore them, especially when you are in a city like Mumbai. It is just the end of July and the city has already had about 75% of its seasons' quota.
It's not been raining the proverbial cats and dogs but yeah, it has not also stopped in a while. If I am counting it right, it's been almost 9 days since the last dry spell.
Personally, I love the rains, the smell of the first drops on the soil, the greenery it spreads, the fall in temperature, the happy kids jumping in small puddles.
Yes, this blog is more about that. The kids in a puddle and enjoying the rains. The smile that they have and the innocence that they carry.
It was about a few days back, I was on my way to my club to play a game of squash with my buddy. It had just started to rain and I was trying to get my wind-cheater out of the bag. I was about to cross the road when I saw an autorickshaw had got stuck in a small pothole. It was full of muck now due to the on-going Metro work in the area. The rick guy came out trying to free the wheel that had got stuck in the hole.
He was trying to get people's attention to help him out but to no avail. Then suddenly out of nowhere these 7-8 toddlers, dressed in a white and biege school uniform came trudging out of the rickshaw and started pushing it. It was a sight to behold.
As I made my way towards them to give them a hand, I realised they were so excited at being able to get wet in the rains in the name of pushing their vehicle that they actually managed to get it out of the hole!
And the next scene was something right out of a scripted children's show. The kids were literally basking in their glory, rather getting drenched in it! They all left their bags in the rick and were jumping with joy and the innocent smiles made the people looking at them remember their childhood when they would find reasons to get wet in the rains and enjoy the weather.
It was one of the most beautiful sights I have seen in a city which is so busy in itself that it hardly looks at people around.
The rains made me realise one thing, if it is summer that gets people's tempers high it is the rains that gets them down...and how!
It's not been raining the proverbial cats and dogs but yeah, it has not also stopped in a while. If I am counting it right, it's been almost 9 days since the last dry spell.
Personally, I love the rains, the smell of the first drops on the soil, the greenery it spreads, the fall in temperature, the happy kids jumping in small puddles.
Yes, this blog is more about that. The kids in a puddle and enjoying the rains. The smile that they have and the innocence that they carry.
It was about a few days back, I was on my way to my club to play a game of squash with my buddy. It had just started to rain and I was trying to get my wind-cheater out of the bag. I was about to cross the road when I saw an autorickshaw had got stuck in a small pothole. It was full of muck now due to the on-going Metro work in the area. The rick guy came out trying to free the wheel that had got stuck in the hole.
He was trying to get people's attention to help him out but to no avail. Then suddenly out of nowhere these 7-8 toddlers, dressed in a white and biege school uniform came trudging out of the rickshaw and started pushing it. It was a sight to behold.
As I made my way towards them to give them a hand, I realised they were so excited at being able to get wet in the rains in the name of pushing their vehicle that they actually managed to get it out of the hole!
And the next scene was something right out of a scripted children's show. The kids were literally basking in their glory, rather getting drenched in it! They all left their bags in the rick and were jumping with joy and the innocent smiles made the people looking at them remember their childhood when they would find reasons to get wet in the rains and enjoy the weather.
It was one of the most beautiful sights I have seen in a city which is so busy in itself that it hardly looks at people around.
The rains made me realise one thing, if it is summer that gets people's tempers high it is the rains that gets them down...and how!
Sunday, June 06, 2010
Killing the nice guy...
Enough I've had,
Enough of this,
I cannot take it even a little bit,
When you want to laugh,
when you want to have fun,
you come back to me and say let's get this done!
but when it's not needed,
you think oh i have not pleaded
so it's all hunky dory coz he's not bleeded,
It is not that common, it does not happen with everyone and it is a big deal,
think i should just tape my mouth and put a seal,
coz if I cannot deal with this one I don't think i can ever put an end to this,
the decision has been made,
I will not put a lid to this,
no more being the nice guy, no more being the good friend,
am not going to be the shoulder you need,
nor am the friend you need,
I am just going to the guy who do not want to meet!
Enough of this,
I cannot take it even a little bit,
When you want to laugh,
when you want to have fun,
you come back to me and say let's get this done!
but when it's not needed,
you think oh i have not pleaded
so it's all hunky dory coz he's not bleeded,
It is not that common, it does not happen with everyone and it is a big deal,
think i should just tape my mouth and put a seal,
coz if I cannot deal with this one I don't think i can ever put an end to this,
the decision has been made,
I will not put a lid to this,
no more being the nice guy, no more being the good friend,
am not going to be the shoulder you need,
nor am the friend you need,
I am just going to the guy who do not want to meet!
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Sometimes
In love with a face,
In love with a smile,
If I get to see her I stand up and rise,
If not then I try to not think of her otherwise,
She is close to me and yet she seems distant,
Her one look and I would give up my existence,
Weekdays go in thinking about her,
Weekends go in talking about her,
Days, weeks, months have passed,
Still no surety of the future or the past,
Want to just hold her hand,
Hold it tight and say it all,
Don’t know why there is a fear,
If she says no, won’t get to go anywhere near,
At times I think I may not be right,
And then I feel I should just tell her with all my might,
Sometimes a lot can change over a yes or no,
My only problem is I don’t think I can let her go,
The time is right, the time is now,
Hope I do this soon just don’t know how!
In love with a smile,
If I get to see her I stand up and rise,
If not then I try to not think of her otherwise,
She is close to me and yet she seems distant,
Her one look and I would give up my existence,
Weekdays go in thinking about her,
Weekends go in talking about her,
Days, weeks, months have passed,
Still no surety of the future or the past,
Want to just hold her hand,
Hold it tight and say it all,
Don’t know why there is a fear,
If she says no, won’t get to go anywhere near,
At times I think I may not be right,
And then I feel I should just tell her with all my might,
Sometimes a lot can change over a yes or no,
My only problem is I don’t think I can let her go,
The time is right, the time is now,
Hope I do this soon just don’t know how!
Saturday, May 08, 2010
One liners
When you get rich, you start getting the things you always wanted...as gifts!
Stupid is just a feeling.
Why can't I ever find a razor that will last more than 2 weeks?
Never feel unloved, coz no matter who you are and what you do, someone, somewhere always has a crush on you.
If life wasn't complex we wouldn't need alcohol!
Stupid is just a feeling.
Why can't I ever find a razor that will last more than 2 weeks?
Never feel unloved, coz no matter who you are and what you do, someone, somewhere always has a crush on you.
If life wasn't complex we wouldn't need alcohol!
Monday, May 03, 2010
Come to the IPL office
The exact same words changed my life in a matter of seconds. From sitting at home for months, doing crappy little projects to make ends meet, suddenly God...and am not referring to Sachin, had this sweet little gift for me.
It was like he felt bad for me on losing my job and opting for cricket and he decided to do justice.
What does a cric-fanatic want in life? Watch cricket matches, meet the players, get to talk to them, may be even move around and travel with them. Go to the best stadiums in the country to witness the drama unfold right in front of their eyes.
And now how about if I tell you that you do all this and you get paid for it? Well, it's nothing short of a dream. And a dream it was, from the first day to the Final of IPL 2010.
A dream, a unforgettable memory, an opportunity of a lifetime. It's all combined in one. The feeling is such that I really cannot express it in words. The more I write about it, the less I think I am writing.
I do not know where to begin and what to write about. Should I talk about my first encounter with some of the legends of the game or should I talk about the newcomers who I featured? Or should I talk about the predictions I made or the analysis that I made which got great appreciation.
Should I talk about the chance to shake hands with the God or should I talk about seeing the best of international talent in one place. Should I talk about the experience or should I talk about the excitement.
The topics are endless. But write I shall, because I won't do justice to my blog if I don't share my feelings.
It was like he felt bad for me on losing my job and opting for cricket and he decided to do justice.
What does a cric-fanatic want in life? Watch cricket matches, meet the players, get to talk to them, may be even move around and travel with them. Go to the best stadiums in the country to witness the drama unfold right in front of their eyes.
And now how about if I tell you that you do all this and you get paid for it? Well, it's nothing short of a dream. And a dream it was, from the first day to the Final of IPL 2010.
A dream, a unforgettable memory, an opportunity of a lifetime. It's all combined in one. The feeling is such that I really cannot express it in words. The more I write about it, the less I think I am writing.
I do not know where to begin and what to write about. Should I talk about my first encounter with some of the legends of the game or should I talk about the newcomers who I featured? Or should I talk about the predictions I made or the analysis that I made which got great appreciation.
Should I talk about the chance to shake hands with the God or should I talk about seeing the best of international talent in one place. Should I talk about the experience or should I talk about the excitement.
The topics are endless. But write I shall, because I won't do justice to my blog if I don't share my feelings.
Somewhere in between
It's what I am feeling for the past one and a half years. Is it her or is it me, I don't know whose responsible for this but the fact remains that I am still clueless. Why do women play such games and keep giving signals? Its neither this nor that.
The girl I think I like at times behaves like my girlfriend and at times is as cold as a freezer! She just won't respond. At times I feel I really have something going for me here and at times I feel like an out cast.
Simple things in life just do not seem to happen in my life! But may be it's just God's way of getting back at me for the pranks I play on people.
So there it is then, we are good! ;)
The girl I think I like at times behaves like my girlfriend and at times is as cold as a freezer! She just won't respond. At times I feel I really have something going for me here and at times I feel like an out cast.
Simple things in life just do not seem to happen in my life! But may be it's just God's way of getting back at me for the pranks I play on people.
So there it is then, we are good! ;)
Monday, February 22, 2010
Foreign IPL players shifting to India permanently!
Now before you start wondering, who, what, where and why. Let me tell you that it’s just a wish! They say wishes come true, so we thought what if they do plan to shift to India! How would things change for them? Our first and foremost task would be to give them an Indian name for them to blend easily in the Indian culture. Players playing for a particular team would definitely have a flavour of the state in their names. This would only make them more popular within the team and city they belong to! So we quickly noted down some names of popular cricketers and rechristened them and indianized their names! Take a look at some:
Jean Paul Duminy (MI) – Jagan Pav Duminikar!
Sanath Jayasuriya (MI) – Sainath Jayasurwekar!
Kieron Pollard (MI) – Kiran Patil
AD De Villiers (DD) – AB Dilli waale!
Dirk Nannes (DD) – Dirki Nannhe
Kemar Roach (DC) – Oomar Roz
Herschelle Gibbs (DC) – Harshal Ahmed Gibbs
Brendon McCullum (KKR) – Arindon McCukerjee!
Owais Shah (KKR) – Owais Sengupta
Graeme Smith (RR) – Graam Singh Rathod
Shaun Tait (RR) – Shaan Tatte Singh Sharma
Cameron White (RCB) – Kumara Whitelingam Naidu
Ross Taylor (RCB) – Rassi Prasad Taiylar
Makhaya Ntini (CSK) – Maikhayan Namboodripal Venkatini
Jacob Oram (CSK) – Jaikobi Venugopal Oraram
Shaun Marsh (KXIP) – Shaninder Singh Matta
James Hopes (KXIP) – Jasmeet Singh Hoshiyaar!
Jean Paul Duminy (MI) – Jagan Pav Duminikar!
Sanath Jayasuriya (MI) – Sainath Jayasurwekar!
Kieron Pollard (MI) – Kiran Patil
AD De Villiers (DD) – AB Dilli waale!
Dirk Nannes (DD) – Dirki Nannhe
Kemar Roach (DC) – Oomar Roz
Herschelle Gibbs (DC) – Harshal Ahmed Gibbs
Brendon McCullum (KKR) – Arindon McCukerjee!
Owais Shah (KKR) – Owais Sengupta
Graeme Smith (RR) – Graam Singh Rathod
Shaun Tait (RR) – Shaan Tatte Singh Sharma
Cameron White (RCB) – Kumara Whitelingam Naidu
Ross Taylor (RCB) – Rassi Prasad Taiylar
Makhaya Ntini (CSK) – Maikhayan Namboodripal Venkatini
Jacob Oram (CSK) – Jaikobi Venugopal Oraram
Shaun Marsh (KXIP) – Shaninder Singh Matta
James Hopes (KXIP) – Jasmeet Singh Hoshiyaar!
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
Play fearless cricket guys!
Same old feeling? Yes, in some ways it was. Thissara Perera it was! You could see the fear Indian bowlers had even before he had faced one ball. Dhoni had his homework done, and had set him an legside field in the powerplay and had all three fielders on the legside and asked the bowlers to bowl on the legs.
Its difficult anyway to bowl in the slog overs and to top it you ask them to bowl in an area of 6 inches??? Dhoni would know if he was a fast bowler!! Not his mistake, a senior maybe a Zak should've told him it's gonna be difficult. We bowled to his strengths and he played to our weakness. he cleared his front leg and would attempt to get bat to ball and aim on the offside...that's all it took and the ball would speed away to the boundary!
All i want to ask is, why could we not make him struggle. In his entire innings of 15 balls, Zak bowled one bouncer! Why did we not try some more of that? Some chin music when the pressure was on them could have done it. Instead we were scared of him and were trying to bowl fast and yorkers at him while at the other end Samaraweera milked the bowling for some singles managing his century.
Remember the times when we used to bowl to Jayasuriya's strength? Wide outside the off stump and have him caught at 3rd man or point? So, why could not we do the same thing for Perera? He is still new to the game, he could have faltered and given up under pressure...fact remains, we did not test him enough!
Now, let's look at the other side...let's go back home...here's a bowler...a fast bowler who bowled his heart out on a slow Indian wicket and got just rewards...a bowler by the name of Abhimanyu Mithun...this guy bowled as good as some of the top notch fast bowlers I have seen. Some experts do agree with me, if i can quote then i would like show you what Mr. Satish Vishwanaathan had to say about the lad -
on Tuesday it was the turn of 20-year-old speedster Abhimanyu Mithun, who all but sealed the final spot for the hosts with a most impressive display of fast bowling rarely seen on Indian soil.
From TOI - 6th Jan, 2010, Mumbai Edition!
Mithun bowled as fearlessly as he could and got the desired results. He was not afraid of the big occasion or the big match, he did what he knows best...bowl good balls. And that is what we struggled to do.
Agreed that ou bowlers did bowl pretty well and it was the due factor that came in and made it a little easier for the Lankans...but all said and done, we lost and thus we need to look and analyze where did we go wrong...!
Its difficult anyway to bowl in the slog overs and to top it you ask them to bowl in an area of 6 inches??? Dhoni would know if he was a fast bowler!! Not his mistake, a senior maybe a Zak should've told him it's gonna be difficult. We bowled to his strengths and he played to our weakness. he cleared his front leg and would attempt to get bat to ball and aim on the offside...that's all it took and the ball would speed away to the boundary!
All i want to ask is, why could we not make him struggle. In his entire innings of 15 balls, Zak bowled one bouncer! Why did we not try some more of that? Some chin music when the pressure was on them could have done it. Instead we were scared of him and were trying to bowl fast and yorkers at him while at the other end Samaraweera milked the bowling for some singles managing his century.
Remember the times when we used to bowl to Jayasuriya's strength? Wide outside the off stump and have him caught at 3rd man or point? So, why could not we do the same thing for Perera? He is still new to the game, he could have faltered and given up under pressure...fact remains, we did not test him enough!
Now, let's look at the other side...let's go back home...here's a bowler...a fast bowler who bowled his heart out on a slow Indian wicket and got just rewards...a bowler by the name of Abhimanyu Mithun...this guy bowled as good as some of the top notch fast bowlers I have seen. Some experts do agree with me, if i can quote then i would like show you what Mr. Satish Vishwanaathan had to say about the lad -
on Tuesday it was the turn of 20-year-old speedster Abhimanyu Mithun, who all but sealed the final spot for the hosts with a most impressive display of fast bowling rarely seen on Indian soil.
From TOI - 6th Jan, 2010, Mumbai Edition!
Mithun bowled as fearlessly as he could and got the desired results. He was not afraid of the big occasion or the big match, he did what he knows best...bowl good balls. And that is what we struggled to do.
Agreed that ou bowlers did bowl pretty well and it was the due factor that came in and made it a little easier for the Lankans...but all said and done, we lost and thus we need to look and analyze where did we go wrong...!
Friday, January 01, 2010
The reply
How is it that you melt my heart
Even though its just the start
How is it that you know just what to say
Is it your flirty and charming ways?
Did you learn it at some school
If you did, I say its cool!
As long as you just use them on me
And just let the other girls be!
Your secret tells me your smitten and so am i
But we are still playing the game..don't know why!!
Guess its cause we don't want it to be a fling
We are both looking for something everlasting
Who knows if we'll get what we are looking for
But as of now we are in an "LDR"!
Even though its just the start
How is it that you know just what to say
Is it your flirty and charming ways?
Did you learn it at some school
If you did, I say its cool!
As long as you just use them on me
And just let the other girls be!
Your secret tells me your smitten and so am i
But we are still playing the game..don't know why!!
Guess its cause we don't want it to be a fling
We are both looking for something everlasting
Who knows if we'll get what we are looking for
But as of now we are in an "LDR"!
The Secret
A secret is what I have for you,
A secret is what i wanna share with you...
But sometimes I feel I should keep it away,
Not tell you for one more entire day!
Keep guessing coz that's the game,
Told you we're Leos but not the same,
Somethings are kept best when hidden,
You of all shouldn't know am smitten,
Oops...I let this one slip...
I should've taped my lip!
You wouldn't have known had I not told,
Now I have no choice but to scold..
Not you or my bloody lip.
But my stupid heart which has given this tip...
That secrets remain secrets only when,
The person you know is more than a friend!
A secret is what i wanna share with you...
But sometimes I feel I should keep it away,
Not tell you for one more entire day!
Keep guessing coz that's the game,
Told you we're Leos but not the same,
Somethings are kept best when hidden,
You of all shouldn't know am smitten,
Oops...I let this one slip...
I should've taped my lip!
You wouldn't have known had I not told,
Now I have no choice but to scold..
Not you or my bloody lip.
But my stupid heart which has given this tip...
That secrets remain secrets only when,
The person you know is more than a friend!
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