the END

so, it finally came, one that has lasted longer than the other ones. this one wasn't that big a deal when it came to facing life after it. May be i ve become stronger.....naahh who am i am kidding...may be i had experienced it before and thus the effect was less this time. Don't know the answer, but sure can't any damaging consequences. this time I do not want anyone's pity and sympathy....did not want it before too but kind off liked it....this time I am yet to open my heart to someone and bore them with my story....or rather my 'love life'!! as they like calling it.

So what has changed....i do not know....this time i did not even tell her its over....i love technology....u can end a relationship through an SMS !!!...wonder when they will have SMS'es that will read..TALAQ TALAQ TALAQ.. and it will all be over in one go !!...in 1 rupee !!...whoaaa that will be some big day i reckon....

anyway..getting back to my sob story...how it happened?....no one wants to know but i want to say..that's what i like about blogs....cool, eh?

that nite..me and my friend were discussing it..(my 'lowe life' duhh )...and she told me to leave her and stop this mess....told me it would affect me later and she couldn't see me suffer.....was so true....i wouldn't wanna suffer for someone who right at the end moment tells me that dude....u r not the one !!...i mean...WHAT THE &^$% !!!

what have i been doing all this while..trying to make her feel special..trying to give her every inch of my soul..trying to make her happy with whatever little i can......trying to make things work...even without much help from any quarter....and all i asked for in return is some sign which tells me she loves me...is it too much to ask?..
am i asking too much when i say please give me some attention and not the 'boy' you think u like....but r not sure..... am i someone in ur life?....do i have any importance? why do i keep asking myself and you this question again and again...there must be something to it.....

my friend gave me the answer....dude....ur no one in her life....

she is not getting the attention she wants from her guy..so she moved on to you...consciously or uncosciously god knows..but she did....n u r giving her all the attention in d world...may b more.....so she gives u these little hints once a while...n u go bonkers !! ....

n i think.....DUDE I WAS SO DUMB !! how could i not see all this before...how could i let her take advantage of me for so long without realising it...

i do not deserve it .....i do not deserve to be kicked around like this...

she had taken things in her hand far too long....its time i took it back...wrest the powers back in my own hands....so i called it quits !..its over.....nothing new...no new reason...same old.....i did not want to celebrate an anniversary with a girl who does not even know whether she likes me or not...had given her enough time....had taken enough time.............enough is enough........


its over !!