Clueless

Am clueless about a lot of things right now. My future, careerwise as well as life in general.

Thinking about it sends shivers down my spine at times. It is so unclear that it is not even funny. At times I feel I am in full control and then one day suddenly things come up which catch me off guard.

It is almost like things happen to unnerve me. I feel like i am getting where i want to be and I see a happy life ahead when lightning strikes. Or should I say reality strikes.

Right now for some odd reason I feel very jittery. I feel nervous, as if something bad is going to happen. I am living under some kind of a threat.

Can't describe this feeling but it is something I want to get rid off right now.